Unspoken Love

Missing her

Milo pov
I just wish after I tried to flirt with her but failed you know it hurts so much that I try but she never seems to notice maybe she is just to busy being beautiful she doesn't notice that I know she's beautiful. I mean really what guy would just sit there and listen to a girls problem if it's not out of love and I mean every night and day I have been thinking about her just cause I was stupid to turn around and avoid her just like some animal or something I mean I know that I shouldn't have tried but I just get so worried and nervous around her and scared of what she will think and if I will mess up my words cause her smile just makes my tongue twist and I get so sweaty I probably stink like a cow or something. 'Maybe I should try and different way to get her attention' I thought to myself. Wait what am I thinking she will never talk to me if I'm a jackass to her, wait maybe I can be a nice guys like carry her books or make her feel special, wait no I will seem despite and I don't want that to happen I want her to think of me as a manly man not a lovey dove nerd that creeps her out cause he is always around her what am I thinking. See what I mean she just gets me so confused why does love have to be like this why can't she just come back and be with me. I miss her so much it hurts. It feels like my heart is in my throat. Why is this so complicated it couldn't have been easy, no of course not nothing ever is with her. It's all her fault why does she have to be so pretty and nice and beautiful. Why? Why? Why!!!!!!!!. I'm going to just kill myself with all this thinking you know what tomorrow is the day I will finally get her attention I will man up and talk to her I'm going to do it oh yes I am. Here I come Gigi!
But as u imagined I did something far worse I scared her and I didn't know what came over me I feel like like like I was so scared and nervous something happened I couldn't just talk to her I had to do something crazy and I did. 'Stupid, stupid, stupid,stupid!!! I thought to myself as I finally got what happened threw my head. All I hope is that she can forgive me for what I did cause, I miss you I should have just said.