Unspoken Love

Why does it hurt so much

Milo pov
I just don't understand what I am doing I love her so much like so much but I can't seem to find a way to express it anymore I can't handle thinking about her over and over again I just love her and I can't do it anymore I wish I could tell her but it hurts to know that she might not like me I just want her to mine I knew I was in love the first sight of her and she knew it too but why can't it be easy why can't it be so simple but it will never be. it's hurts more than anything I felt the heart aches everything the head aches the more I think about her the more I start to cry and not having her why can't I have her why can't she be mine already in my arms already just why. but yet it's seems I will never know never ever know and that haunts me so bad what if I will never if she loves me or Ben cares for me but she has to right, right. I don't know and it hurts so much not knowing anything and just being clueless somtimes I really feel like blonde why do I have to why. why can't it be easy? Why can't it help me out? Why does it hurt me like this so much? I ask so many questions but they are never answered so I just stop asking and let the haunting of it kill me inside to I don't know how I should act to her or anything. Why?
I wish this hurting would stop but it never will.