You Mighty, Submissive Soul • Kylo Ren

Defiance

No more. Fuck it.

You couldn't stay in your room another second. It was driving you mad. It was your last 'rest' day until training began and although you were determined to savor it, you also wanted to get the hell out of your quarters.

There was still a great chance you would defy Kylo and not show up to training, but perhaps it was still up in the air.

As much as you loved your room and how upgraded it was from the cell or your home on Jezuno, you needed a new scenery around you. At least for a little while.

You spent the past couple of days sleeping, showering and staring at the dark ceiling. There was zero entertainment in your quarters which pretty much sucked which was why you were going to find entertainment of your own... elsewhere within the huge base.

Kylo had delivered lunch to you everyday meaning he would likely know you were gone but that didn't concern you enough to make you obey him. He could go get blasted on the battlefield for all you cared.

But then...

You still felt his phantom fingers holding your jaw in place from yesterday. The memory sent a tingle through your body and you physically shook it off. Something about it made you feel something you never had. You couldn't explain it. Did you— did you like it?

Never before had you experienced such a thing. There was one time on Jezuno where a guy who was there for cargo delivery showed an interest in you which was when you lost your virginity. But that sex had been fairly gentle and slow. Nothing like the actions Kylo had committed on you.

Why— how had these thoughts turned to fucking?

Quickly removing the events of yesterday from your head, you dressed as fast as you could as to make sure you wouldn't get caught by Kylo bringing your food. You glanced at the clock:

11:15

That was good. He usually came around twelve-hundred sharp so you had time to get out and explore the base. Possibly even return to your quarters before Kylo arrived. That was the goal.

You opened the door to leave and a tiny beep sounded but you thought nothing of it. Walking fast away from your quarters, you had no idea where you were headed. All you had to do first was get a good amount of distance away from the room and then you could walk around lazily and check things out.

During the escape away from your room, no one really seemed to regard you except for one guy who looked to be a decent looking maintenance worker. You expected him to glare at you just like everyone else had, nothing less, only he actually granted you with a crooked but still nice smile. You gave back a small grin and continued your walk.

You passed through a few hangars, admiring the TIE fighters that zoomed in and out of the base. What a sight it was, even if it was the most deadly order in the galaxy.

You gazed out into space at the infinite amount of stars, wondering how far away you were from your home planet. The galaxy was beautiful.. if only you could see other planets, ones with more color and life. If you could spend the rest of your life living in a house surrounded by green grass and nature then you'd be happy until death.

A bundle of heavy steps sounded to your left, pulling you out of the trance and when you turned a whole squadron of marching white-armored soldiers was about to run you down.

Quickly stumbling out of the way, you got out of there before anyone could question who you were and where you were supposed to be. It was a miracle that not a single person had stopped you so far or reported you back to Kylo.