Forgiveness Doesn't Comes That Easy

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If I run he will find me if I fake my death he'll know it's me he knows me he know me too well I just have to get out of this abuse it hurts so fucking much. After all he has the money to know my where abouts aleast that's what he told me and if I ran he won't stop searching until I'm found and he'll make my life a living hell as if I'm not living in it already because He doesn't want me and yet I'm not allowed to be happy not allowed to live my dream not allowed out this hell making me his ignored wife his burden his slave.

How can a human be so wicked to his own kind how can my family treat me like this.Marrying correction sold me off to some guy who probably things and take me for a gold digger but hi I'm not I never wanted this but for the sake of my wicked family whom sacrificed my well being to be the wife of an abusive tramp.

They betrayed me they crushed me for the sake of there happiness and the  daughter that I am was willing to do anything to comfort and protect my love ones with all I had never knowing that this was what they wanted to get rid of me.

Of course I should have known I mean but no 21 year old should go through this being forced to marry a 26 year old man that your not in love with that tells you how ugly and disgusting you are and how he can't stand seeing you in fact I should have been chasing my dream in becoming actress but my family have me clean the streets than become an actress.

In my family no one cared what I wanted no cared for me and yet all I think about is what they wanted even though it killed me knowing that it would help me to better my life in the future.

Rich,poor, average,in fact no one should have and yet here I am onika latia James being married of to some rich guy who I have never been allowed to go near.

What else should I say I'm not allowed to say anything to him not allowed near him unless I'm called to do something of course his personal slave.

The wife who watches other women been in and out of the house after long sex sessions with my husband my ruler because I'm not allowed to do anything or mentioned about being his wife to any one who step foot in this house.

If only God could help me get out of this hell this struggle I would be greatful to death,And yet again he helps those who help them selves but I'm too weak too afraid of what will happen what awaits me in this life this house.

Afraid to speak out afraid that I will get the beating that I didn't deserve afraid of what awaits.I stayed as quiet and unseen from the rest of the world.

Marriage with this man was not my choice marriage of course because we didn't love each other but of course its not my choice this life was never mind to decide in very beginning. _________________________________________-----------------------------------------------------------------
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