Legacy // BTS AU

Dear Hoseok

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Dear Hoseok,

Hey Hobi, J-Hope.

I don't even know where to start. Just... keep shining bright for everyone. You've always been good at that.

You've never failed to put a smile on my face whenever i needed it. Thank you so much. You've always stayed so happy. Even in our darkest moments, there's still a smile on your face.

You're such a bright sun Hobi.

You used to ask me... when we were working, why I never liked looking at childhood photos. Well, I shouldn't let that question go unanswered.

The reason why was because I ruined that kid's life.

That kid used to have hope in their eyes, eagerness to do well, to make people happy.

I failed that kid.
I failed myself.

I'm sorry Hobi, that i lied to you too. I'm sorry that i said that i'll stay by your side. And i'm not there.

You used to come to me, with your issues, asking for my advice. I'm not sure if I gave you good advice but seeing your satisfied expression made me happy. Your persona is hard to put on. I know that.

The fake smiles you put on for the world. For army. For us.

The others will stay with you. You all need each other.

I'm sorry i'm not there. I'm sorry that i can never be there again.

You have such a long life ahead of you, filled with happiness given by different people. Something i'll never get.

I had to go Hobi. I'm sorry i never got to play that final game of basketball that you challenged me to.

You're amazing. You deserve so much. I'll miss that smile. Don't let anyone cover up your sun.

I'll miss you.

Kim Namjoon

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Jung Hoseok's breath hitched as he put the letter back on the desk. He could hear the faint cries of the others members. It broke him.

His hyungs, the maknaes, all of them.

Hoseok was supposed to be the light in Bangtan. He was supposed to make everyone happy. How could he? They lost a friend.

How could he even think of being happy?
All positive thoughts melted away.
There was no bright side.

"Why did you leave me? HOW COULD YOU GO WITHOUT ME?! YOU PROMISED TO STAY WITH ME. YOU PROMISED WE WOULD FACE THE WORLD TOGETHER. AND YOU'RE GONE! YOU'RE GONE NAMJOON. YOU LIED TO ME. YOU'RE A LIAR KIM NAMJOON. Namjoon... ," Hoseok screamed to himself as he fell onto the bed, tears falling down his red cheeks.

He pulled at his hair, his nails running along his arm, trying to replace the pain in his chest with physical pain.
Hoseok lost control. He screamed, filled with sadness and grief. He felt hysterical.

He didn't know how long he screamed, or when Yoongi came in and hugged him. Yoongi took Hoseok's hand from his wrist and held it. He squeezed it and cried with Hoseok.

The two boys, two hyungs of BTS, cried together, mourning the loss of their friend.