Legacy // BTS AU

Dear Jeongguk

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Dear Ggukie,

hey peter parker. Remember i used to call you that? You used to say you looked up to me like how Peter looked up to Tony Stark. I'm no Tony Stark Ggukie.

And you're not Peter Parker. You're Jeon Jeongguk . And i'm proud to have met Jeok Jeongguk .

Oh Ggukie, I remember meeting you the first day. I was the reason you joined Bighit. I was so honoured, to have such a young kid be amazed by me that he turned down opportunities from other companies.

I wish i could've given you a Tony Stark worthy death. I'm sorry I didn't.

Jeongguk , you're such a talented boy. I've watched you grow up to the man you are today. Your future is so bright. You've grown so well.

Your voice is beautiful and you dance like you were made to do it. You amaze me with your talents every time i see you. Every time you dance and sing, you make me so proud. The 13 year old boy i met during auditions has grown so much.

You wanted to be like me right? When we first met.
I hope you still don't. I was never good at being Kim Namjoon. I failed at being myself. This fate would've come sooner or later. You're Jeon Jeongguk and you're better off being Jeon Jeongguk than trying to be Kim Namjoon.

Your hyungs will take care of you. Stay together. I pray nothing separates you. Our bond was strong. I'm so sorry Jeongguk. You don't deserve any of this. I'm a terrible hyung. I'm sorry.

I'm sorry i'm not there to be able to hug you. I love you so much Jeon Jeongguk.

Kim Namjoon

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Jeongguk gulped as he read through the letter, each word feeling like a knife in his heart. His hyung, Namjoon, had written that. For him.

He had already cried so much the previous day. After all, he was the one who found his hyung's body on the floor of his room.

The noose around his neck.
The marks it caused.
His eyes, the soft eyes which would look at the band with
affection, staring into nothing. Glassy and empty.
The scars on his wrist, with his sleeve brought up to expose them. There were so many lines criss crossing each other, some looking faded and some red and raw. It showed how long Kim Namjoon had been sufferings.

Jeongguk remembered getting on his knees, sobbing his heart out and screaming for someone to save his hyung. But it was over.

Jeongguk would pay anything to get that image of Namjoon's limp body out of his mind. The way it was stiff and cold to the touch. It scared Jeongguk so much.

"Hyung. You were the best hyung I could've asked for. I wish i could reverse time, to that day. To show how much I love you. But still, thank you for existing. Thank you for blessing us Kim Namjoon. I'm sorry you never got the long happy life you deserve"