一𝙄'𝙢 𝙞𝙣 𝙏𝙧𝙤𝙪𝙗𝙡𝙚 ♡ 𝙆𝙚𝙤𝙣𝙝𝙚𝙚

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Keonhee's days of never-ending suffering turned to months. He faked every little smile or lingering happiness people expected him to feel, and he was surprisingly good at it. No one seemed to notice the true suffering behind it all.

Despite how much he is suffering through however, he still chooses to love Leedo. Even if Leedo would never see him in the way Keonhee sees Leedo, he would forever love him. Even so, Keonhee was bound to feel the jealousy brewing down deep inside of him.

The way Leedo was so delicate with Xion made his heart twist and turn with pain. It even stirred a little jealousy in his own heart. He felt guilty he felt that way, but jealousy was something he couldn't hold back.

Even in moments right now, all of Leedo and Keonhee's friends had gathered up to have a special dinner tonight, specifically celebrating the end of exams.

Leedo was sitting next to Xion, a arm wrapped around the back of Xion's chair and shoulders. Leedo, Xion, and Hwanwoong were talking about something that made Xion laugh.

And the way Leedo looked at Xion's laughing face. His gaze screamed, ' I love him so much, he's so pretty it hurts ', you know? It looked like Keonhee could never be the apple of Leedo's eye, Xion was reserved for that spot.

It's not like Keonhee couldn't see it though. Xion was flawless, literally glowing even when he didn't try to. Xion was smaller and more petite than Keonhee, making it easy for Leedo to hug and cuddle. His hair was soft and fluffy, much healthier compared to Keonhee's. Keonhee's wasn't soft and fluffy, it was flat and straw-like from how much he has dyed it.

Xion was quiet, which was the opposite of Keonhee. Keonhee liked to talk...a lot. Listening didn't come quite easy to him...Xion was a mischievous type of person, who loved to mess with others in a fun type of way. Keonhee couldn't relate, he was sensitive to the bone. He never liked teasing his friends too much.

As you can see, just from these few examples, Xion and Keonhee are very different. Of course, Keonhee would feel jealous of Xion.

He was the perfect one in Leedo's eyes, he's the one that gets to hold Leedo, he's the one that gets to spend his time loving. Keonhee doesn't have that. He doesn't have anyone he can do that too actually. Yeah, maybe Ravn will let him cuddle him, but not because he loves him like that.

He just wants someone to love him as a lover. That's all he ever wanted in Leedo.

Keonhee couldn't help but feel tears well in his eyes. Not the same ones from when he stubbed his toe earlier, no, it was the burning sensation from when he had to run out of class. And the time he ran out after finding out the news about Leedo and Xion from them directly.

They felt worse than last time though. His eyes burned worse as he felt the urge to cry more than ever. He quickly stood up, his eyes looking around the restaurant frantically for the bathroom. When he finally spotted it, he took a step back, his chair falling down with it. He started to breathe frantically as he rushed towards the bathroom. He ignored the worried hollers from his friends, finding it more important in getting away.

He eventually reached the one-room bathroom, stepping in and slamming the door behind him. He locked it tight as he finally felt the painful tears roll down his face. The mocking jingle sound filled the room, green sparkling tears cascading down his cheeks on to the floor.

He let out a choked sob as through his crying eyes, he watched as the green plant in the corner of the bathroom slowly started to fade to another variation of gray.