The Lockdown Effect

The Guitar

Tay picked up the guitar he had received from Lee, he breathed deeply as he let his fingers slide over the strings that were rough against his fingers, he didn't know where he had gotten the idea of wanting to learn to play the guitar, it might be something that had come on impulse since so many around him could play it. He vaguely remembered that he was going to pay Lee for it, but that had incredibly enough turned out to never happen, maybe it was because it was Lee who had given it to him, and therefore he had done nothing but joke that Tay had to pay for it.

He saw Lee sitting on his cellphone on the couch, it seemed like he was watching something, Tay shifted his focus away from Lee and climbed on, Lee had taught him a little, but it felt like so little compared to what others could, maybe it was that Tay was fully focused and calm when it came too playing guitar, yet he was determined to learn more than he could before.

Lee knew he was staring at Tay, it was like a heat that hit him from the side, he could hear Tay playing on the guitar he had given him, he would not give Tay the pleasure of showing that he, Lee was listening to Tay play. Tay had learned two new songs in recent days, he picked up quickly.

Although Tay was all over the place and somewhat clumsy, this was part of Tay Tawan's charm. He had been thinking of asking Tay to pay up, but he had not bothered with it, they lived together so he saw Tay day and night, all day round. He sneaked a cautious look at Tay. Lee felt he could drown in his soul since Tay had moved in. Lee couldn't break the gaze that had now fallen on the guitar and Tay was sitting and playing it. Lee put away his cellphone, got up and walked over to Tay, he put a hand on the guitar, part of him wanted to take it from him, another just wanted to drown in Tay's soul.

Tay laughed when Lee suddenly put a hand on the guitar, he had not reacted to Lee getting up and coming towards him. "was it that bad?" he asked.

Tay looked at Lee, who still hadn't done or said anything, he stared intently at Tay, something about the look that Tay recognized. Something hungry that grew in Lee.

Tay reassured that he had to pay for the guitar once, but so far he had come up with excuses for not doing so, it wasn't that he had no money, but rather that he didn't want to use them. He didn't even buy makeup and cosmetics if he could. Otherwise, Arm was a fine source that hoarded such and exposed friends and colleagues to his cosmetic experiments. Tay was guilty of owning more to Arm than he could think of, but he had so far managed to turn it around in an incredible way. Tay knew that one day he would have to pay back if he failed to avoid it.

He did not break eye contact with Lee, something he felt he couldn't lose on, in an attempt to joke with Lee, Tay said "if you want the payment back now I have to pay with my body." something flashed in Lee's eyes. Lee let his hand slip through Tay's hair, ruffling it in the process. "If you want to pay that way, it will take a long time. It's not a cheap one, that guitar. " Lee said as he continued to cuddle with Tay's hair.

Lee bowed gently to get closer to him; Tay saw Lee come close to him. "So, you're saying that the guitar is more worth than me? I do not think so, my body has more value than the guitar. " Tay said so low that he wondered if he was breathing at all.

He felt Lee's warm breath against his noses touching each other. "Yes, I believe that the guitar has more value than you because the sentimental value is greater overall. Because it is a guitar. So, the value cannot be measured against you.

Their lips met in one soft kiss. "If you want to pay that way, it's fine, but then I decide when you paid for the guitar." Lee said between the kisses. Tay put the guitar aside, "Here?" Tay spoke between the kisses, "or ..." his lips met again Lees, "inside?" Tay did as best he could to say what he could from when he could catch his breath. It turned out to be difficult since Lee showed him no mercy. "there." was the only thing Lee said. Tay was somewhat surprised as Lee showed no signs of moving. Tay got up standing in front of Lee, Lee kissed him again, the guitar laying on the couch as Tay had laid it.

Tay lifted Lee up as Lee did nothing to lead it further. They continuously kissed while Tay carried Lee to bed. Lee held Tay on top of him, as if trying not to let him escape.

Tay looked at Lee again, he wasn't stupid. Tay understood that Lee had no trouble submitting to him. Like Tay had no problem submitting to Lee. It was not the first time, nor the last. As they lay on the bed, clothes disappeared from their bodies finding the way to the floor, as Tay and Lee was lying there, touching every single part of the bed as they rolled around as they switched to undress. Lee pulled Tay's belt and threw it to the floor with a thump. Tay opened the button on Lee's pants, he kissed Lee on his stomach as he pulled down the zipper on his pants. Tay came no further before Lee was again on Tay and the last of the underwear found its way down to the floor.

Lee had once again placed himself on the bed, showing that he wanted Tay on top of him which Tay was not unwilling to do. They kissed dearly and gently. It was something with the mood that often decided if Lee let Tay top him. They kissed again as if to go deeper into the moment.

Lee was breathing deeply, he knew, felt Tay, all of him, the weight of him, his body heat, his breath and how he tasted. It felt like they were one with the universe where they were on the bed, caressed, loved.

Tay grabbed Lee's hips and pushed them against Lee's chest, Lee had to close his eyes to deal with it all. He could feel Tay's warmth that was now deep in him. Lee tried to stay silent, but he could not keep it in. A breath escaped his lips, much clearer than Lee had thought, he felt Tay kissing him again, his neck so cheeky, Lee felt his lips against his. As if Tay had read what was going thru Lees head.

They lay on the bed for a long time, Tay wondering at what was going through Lee's head that had cuddled all the way up to him. Did Lee still want Tay to pay for the guitar? And if so, how much?

Lee kissed Tay on the stomach and up against his chest. He was awake again. Tay realized that this made it clear that he still had a lot to pay for the guitar. All only from the look that Lee gave him. He liked that they had the openness they had and that they could be so confident that they could go both ways. Tay had to get up from the bed, as he got up, he planted a kiss on Lee's hip that showed no signs of getting out of bed yet.

Tay made a cup of Tea in the kitchen. He leant against the kitchen counter and enjoyed this cup of Tea, he really gotten used this lifestyle. Tay looked towards the bedroom, if it had not been for the bother that came with showering together, he would have showered with Lee when he got up. His eyes fell again on the guitar, it was still there, oh so ever clear it was that Tay knew; he would definitely not pay for it with money. Lee would just have to accept that, Tay took another sip, the warmth filled him up and good. He made another cup for Lee that he took back to the bedroom.