Its NOT love Its Lust (GirlXGirl)

What can i do

Warning thers going yo be some sad content on this chapter
Jenns pov
"jenn can i ask you something" my best friend asked me she has been kinda acting weird ever since the party that we kissed. I hope she isnt like weirded out cuz of it because i dont want are friendship to be ruind cuz of the kiss that meant nothing i jzt really didnt want to kiss that creap like eww that is jzt disgusting "heyyy sam can i sit with u?" i heard a voice that didnt sound fumiliar so i looked up to see a girl with short dirty blond hair and green eyes. "y-y-yea go ahead tina" "thanks" thats weird sam never sturters "oh hey sam what where you going to ask me right now" "oh ill ask u later its not important" ok sam went back to eating the crapy food that the skewl gives us like yuck but i didnt bring any snacks so i have to eat this i looked up to see that sam was red as a tomato is that blushing is there a cute guy around us i look to my sides but saw there was no cute guys oh well when we where done we through our trash away and went out side and walked around tina is actually really kewl i also found out that she is a lesbian but she also told me not to tell sam because she doesnt know how she will react and that she doesnt want to rouind tueir friendship.
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P.E
It was finally pe so that meant that after this period i can go home and lay down and watch some netflix yes i said netflix its a good thing i didnt have any homework for any of my classes oh and the best part is that my best friend is here in pe with me "sam!" u missed you it was forever since i last saw you i thought i was going to die without seeing you" "haha right thats the same thing i thought" "oh so what where you going to ask me during lunch" "oh um um well what would um..." "come on spit it out girl" "ok whatwouldyoudoifiwasgay?" "wait what talk in english" "i said what would you do if i was gay?" "wait your gay" when i said that i regreat it because she instantly looked down and i felt so bad especially cuz stupid terra was next to us and she jzt had to have a big mouth. "ha i knew it u stupid queer" "you know what terra you..." "No jenn let it go dont even try to say anything" i looked over to my best friend and saw she was still looking down and her fist were clenched she also had teard runing down her cheek "oh sam dont listen to her" i told sam as she wlked away and heard terras stupid laugh as she walked to her group of barbies gosh i hate her so much she has teyed to make sams life miserable ever since elementry its probably jzt because sam is prettier than her yes im straight but i know beauty when i see it and sam is one of the most beautiful girls ive met and she is also very caring loving and she puts everyone before her. Everytime i tryed to get near her she jzt walked away "sam please talk to me" "no jen i need time to think please... I... I... I jzt dont want to blowe up in your face please ok yes im gay i found out i was gay the day we kissed at the party thats why i have been acting wierd no im not in love with you i jzt see you as a sister nothing all so please dont think i will start hitting up on you or anything ok" "sam your my best friend i will never see you as anything else i love you and i see u the same way ok dont worry our friendship will always be like it was forever and always" thank you jenn but right niw i jzt..." she was cut off by the bell signalising us it was time to go home "need time" she finished and as soon as she said that i saw hurt and another emotion that i couldnt tell because as soon as it was there it left and she turned around and left the class running out "sam!" i tryed to stop her to try to see the emotion but it was to late then tina approched me "hey wats up with sam she was ceying when i tryed to talk to her but she jzt kept running" "it was terra" "oh hell naw wheres that bitch jzt let it go for now lets go"
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Sams pov
I know i shouldnt be feeling like this but it jzt hurt so much to be called that word i jzt shouldnt have said anything to jenn "hey sam wheres your girlfriend did you two get in a fight oh wait she isnt gay and now she wants nothing with u" "stfu terra" "wht sam you know its true no one likes gay people you should jzt go kill yourself" when she said tht i jzt walked away maybe she is right maybe i should end my life.
I got home and noone was there so i grabed my carving knife and did what i said i was never going to do again
1 cut
2 cut
3 cut
4 cut..... 20
My arms had blood dripping so i went to the bathroom to wash it off i started to cry even more why does she hate me what did i do to her i jzt dont know what to do please make the pain stop then i jzt blocked out
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Hey guys i know pretty fucked up chapter but hey its all working up to get to good parts so what do you guys think i know that many lgbt people get bullyed for their sexuality and who they chose to love and it is not right so if you know anyone that gets bullied for any reason go up to them and tell them that they are not alone and that te best is yey to come coment what you guys think
Byez
-vyktory