Psych Love (BTS V ff.)

Chapter 1

Today, I felt like complete crap. All I could think about was ways to end my life. No matter how much I tried to shrug the thoughts off, it just kept lingering.

Today, I planned to do a lot of productive work but I wasn't able to concentrate on it.

I planned exercising to stay in shape but I gave up halfway through the workout.

"I'm so useless."

I thought to myself. I began to think about all the bad things I have done and how I was being punished for it.

"Do it!"
"Come on you wuss."

My voice kept saying, controlling all my thoughts.

"Just go away!"
I shouted, attempting to get rid of it.

I was so frustrated that I wanted to feel some sort of release other than frustration.

I walked towards the kitchen and spotted a knife. I picked it up and analysed it.

"If only I could release my frustration."

My plan was to make a cut on my wrist. I'll eventually find a vein and then end me.

"What are you doing?"

A familiar voice looked at me, worried.

She took the knife away from me before I could cut deeper.

"Mum.. please."
I begged.

"No! What if it gets infected? We need to go to the hospital as soon as possible."

"It's fine mum."

My mum did not listen to me. She dragged me to the hospital and made sure my cut was looked at.

"Excuse me, I would like to see a doctor. My daughter cut herself."
She said, worried towards the receptionist.

"I will book you in. May I see the cut?"

My mum pulled my arm towards the receptionist for the receptionist to see.

"Ooohh.. that's a deep cut. It may need stitching."

The receptionist looked at my wound.

"A doctor will see you within an hour, please sit in the waiting area."