Disturbed Serenity

12 - Affection is flourishing

First Person Point of View

"M-matatamaan ang mga sugat mo..." This is the best thing I can say when I felt him wrap around his arms. Pagkasabi ko noon, mas lalong humigpit ang yakap niya. It brought me a lot of emotions, and not to mention I can feel his bare chest on my body. His breaths are like speaking a hundred words that my heart can only grasp.

I only breathed heavily with him while trying to calm down the tinggling sensation from my stomach. His touch is so much for me. I feel like I'll explode.

Before I finally eat my feelings up, I hold his hand, at dahan dahan ko itong itinanggal sa yakap sa akin. hindi naman naging mahirap dahil hinayaan niya lang ako gawin 'yon. Mabuti naman, akala ko kasi pipigilan niya pa ako.

Lakas loob akong humarap sakan'ya, "Sige na. Sandali lang 'to. Gagamutin ko 'yan..." His thick brows moved and eyeing me while I was doing all of this.

"Wala lang ito..." I did not mind what he said, and I sniffed. Ang mga mata niya para akong pinapako sa mga tingin nito, at ang mga kamay nitong gumagabay sa bewang ko na parang ayaw na ako kumawala

"Upo."

Mabilis siyang tumango dahil pinilit kong patigasin ang boses ko para makinig na siya. Mas nakita ko rin ang mga sugat n'ya ngayon na kaharap ko siya. He suddenly wiped the trace of the tears I shed that caused my internal organs to go wild inside!

He did it so casually and turned around so I could have access to his wounds. I saw a tattoo, and it's a yin yang. I feel like I am a fan of how I react to his whole body.

Dinampi ko ang bimpo sa katawan niya. I should clean this because it has traces of dirt.

"Walang kasalanan ang Tata mo rito...Ayos lang ako. Don't be mad at him." My face looked more confused.

He sighed. "Nalaglag kasi ako sa puno kahapon..."

Ang bakas ng inis ko sa mukha ay napalitan ng pag-aalala. Kaya pala siya pagod na pagod. Hindi naman kasi niya kailangan gawin ito, kung bakit hindi ko masabi na tumigil siya baka kasi magtanong siya ng bagay na pinipilit kong itago.

I held his knees for support kasi pakiramdam ko mapapa-upo na ako sa tingin niya, "How are you feeling now?"

I saw a hint of a smile from his face, pero naging seryoso iyon. "I already told you. I am fine."

Tinuloy ko na ang pag-punas ko sakan'ya. I can feel the warmth of his body more than ever. I forgot the feeling I had before with him, and now this is all foreign and not that I don't like it.

He touched my hand so gently. I carefully made not so much sound from my reaction because I look obvious that I feel good about it. Mapungay ang mata niyang nakasilip sa akin while leaving my lips slightly opened. His eyes went back and forth to my lips, and I bit mine out of shyness.

"It's okay now..." The strugle in his words was very evident, and it was only a whisper.

I was surprised when he lay down on my lap! My eyes were widely opened. Mabilis ang galaw niya kaya wala na akong nagawa para kumontra.

Well, he never listens to me.

"This will get better when we are like this..." Naka-pikit siya habang sinasabi iyon. Hindi ko maipaliwanag ang pakiramdam ko. I saw a drawing on his biceps.

"You have a nice tattoo..."

Mukhang nagulat siya sa nasabi ko. Kahit ako hindi ko akalain na magsasalita ako ng ganito.

"Really?"

I nodded at him.

Tipid siyang ngumiti sa akin and closed his eyes after my response.