Falling For The BAD GUY

Chatper 32- love game

October 8, 2001

NAOMI's POV:

So it's been a week since I got back home and all I did for these past 7 days was crying my eyes out. The second I got into Emma's car that day I broke down like I've never did before. I also didn't tell her what happened and she got worried. Even my mom tried to get me talking but I just didn't say nothing. Marshall has been trying to call me for the past 2 days and I've ignored him, I'm just so hurt! I can't believe he would do something like that to me! I love this man so much I fell for him so fast and so hard that it's just crushing me now. I'm going back to work tomorrow so I'm glad I'm gonna have something else to think about but right now I just sit in my room crying again and just looking in space trying to get my mind work on something else. After at least 20 minutes of sitting and crying I hear my phone ringing. With no power I pick it up and see Marshall's name, I didn't pick up. I miss him. I miss him so much, at least with what happened with James I had him as a loving and caring figure but now I have no one. I mean I do have Emma and my mom but it's just not the same. The phone is ringing again and I don't pick up. After 2 minutes it rings again and it's been like that for the past 10 minutes...guess what? It's ringing again but This time I decided to pick up

"Hello?" I whispered

"Naomi why the fuck have you been ignoring me??" He already started yelling

"What do you want marshall?" I asked him

"I've been worrying sick about you!" He yelled and I sighed

"I asked what do you want?"

"What do I want? Are you really giving me that shit?! You said this wasn't over Naomi and here I am trying to reach out for you for the past 2 days and you ignore my ass! What the fuck Naomi?!" he raised his voice

"Don't you even dare raising your voice marshall! You fucked up! Like all the other times! You're the one who did that shit! I'm hurt! I feel weak! I've been crying none stop for the past week and it's all cause of you Marshall! You! So if I don't want to pick up the fucking phone I won't, and don't you even think about yelling at me!" I snapped out

"Naomi you said that we're not over! And you completely ignore me!"

"What did you expect marshall?! That after what you did I would stay with you?! I've been through one bad relationship in my life and I've grown up to learn and teach myself how to not get into another one!" I said and it's true. I don't want to get in another relationship that's gonna destroy me

"Bad relationship?! I've been treating you like a fucking Queen!!" He said angrily

"Bye marshall." I was about to put the phone down but he said something first

"So this is over?"

"Did you not understand anything from this conversation??"

"Are you fucking kidding me Naomi?!?!" He yelled

"I said don't yell!"

"I'm coming up to your house right now!" He said and I laughed at him

"You don't know my address." I said but the phone line cut off "marshall?" He didn't respond. Ok, what the fuck?! How can he get fucking angry on me with him being the bad guy in all of this! This is fucking bullshit! I just through the phone away and cry until I fell asleep

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*BANG *BANG* *BANG*

I wake up from the loud noise

*BANG* *BANG* *BANG*

I heard the loud sound coming for down stairs so I ran to the front door. I open it up while I tried to adjust my eyes to the bright light. Fuck! It's marshall. What the fuck is he doing here?! He just stand in front of me looking pissed as hell and I already know what's gonna happened. He just invited himself in and I sigh and close the door.

"Marshall I don't wanna argue. I've had enough."

"So you decide to ignore me?!" He already raised his voice and I sighed

"What are you doing here marshall?" I asked still with the back to him

"What am I doing here?!" He asked angrily

"Yes Marshall what are you doing here?! I think I made it pretty clear that I don't want you around me!" I said back

"I don't care Naomi you don't get to just break up with me!" He said and took a step forward and I could feel my blood rushing

"I get to do what ever I want!" I yelled At him and took a step back

"No you fucking don't" he said and got really close to me

"Who even gave you my address?!" I asked him

"It doesn't matter." He looked down

"It was Emma right? I know it!" I can't believe she's give him my address ugh!!

"Naomi I'm fucking Eminem I can get what ever I want." He said with a frown

"Are you trying to scare me?" I raised my eyebrows at him

"No Naomi that's not the case. You're not ending this." He said as he got close to me again

"Marshall just go!" I could feel the tears behind my eyes just begging to come out but I hold it

"Naomi no! I love you way too much to walk away!" He said and placed his hands softly on my hips "please just forgive me" he seemed genuinely sorry "I've been going insane for this past week. I hate myself for what I did Naomi you know I would never hurt you." He said and leaned in and I pulled back but he hold my hips so I couldn't move. That's when the tears started rolling down my face

"But you did Marshall!!" I said and hit his chest once "why can't you fucking understand that I don't want you near me!!! Everytime you take a step forward my body starts to shake even worse." I screamed out and punched his chest and he didn't let go of my hips "I'm scarred for the rest of my life from you and James! The only people I've ever loved before did the worst things you can possibly think of in a relationship! I hate you!! I fucking hate you!!" I scream my heart out and collapse in his arms. "I love you so much. But I hate you even more!! I don't think I've ever been this hurt by someone! Ever!" I cry to his chest and he hold me for his dear life. Having him holding me Makes me feel safe all of a sudden I'm not scared of him anymore. I cry for 5 minutes straight and we just stand here while he's holding me and brushing his hands through my hair. I sobbed to his chest and that's when he hold my cheek with his big hand and look into my eyes I see his eyes also red and that's makes me even sadder

"Baby please" his voice cracked "forgive me"

"I don't know Marshall. I really don't."

"Naomi im begging you. Just say ok" he said and got really close to my lips and I closed my eyes "please say ok"

"No Marshall I won't say ok" I backed off

"Why not" he frowned

"Cause you hurted me so fucking badly marshall!" I yell but avoid his eyes

"Naomi look at me!" I looked deep into his eyes
"I love you! I love you so fucking much and I wanna kill myself for what I did to you. You don't deserve any of what you've been through. I don't deserve you. You need a real man and not an asshole like me. But I'm gonna be selfish cause I'm not gonna let nobody else have you. Remember what I've told you the last time we had sex?" He asked and I shock my head "you're mine you're all mine. I'm not going to let anyone else touch or look at you. I love you. I fucking love you. That's why I'm standing here letting out my feelings cause I need you in my life" he said and got super close to my lips.

"Love is not always enough marshall" I whispered

"You're my world Naomi" he said and I looked into his eyes "I've fell for you way too fucking fast and way too fucking hard! I can't let you go! I can't fucking let you go. Please baby" he said and kissed my lips but I didn't return the kiss so he broke it off and made me look at him "Naomi I'm begging you" he had tears in his eyes "please just let me in" he said and a tear rolled down his cheek, Without even thinking I smashed my lips to his...