"Let's pretend we never met
A good excuse to play forget"
-Tink "Pretend"
Pulling the covers back up on Jax I kissed his forehead. I curled up on the couch & tried to get comfortable. Just as I was about to close my eyes the door came open.
"Hi good morning sorry to wake you I'm Stephanie the head nurse did you need anything?"
"Good morning Stephanie & no not right now thank you"
"You welcome, is the little guy feeling better?"
"Just a little I just got him to go back to sleep."
"Okay, we'll be around shortly to do shift change let us know if you need anything"
"Thank you I will"
She left out the room & shut the door I'll be glad when we can go home. Two days ago my baby boy wasn't feeling well at all he couldn't keep nothing on his stomach. Me being the concerned parent I took him to the emergency room. They told me he had a stomach virus & was dehydrated I had Lei reschedule my morning clients. My phone buzzed I sighed & picked it up
From: Auntie 💜💜
Good morning on my way to you so you can get some rest.
Texting back I put the phone back down Jax started to stir in his sleep again. I know my baby is uncomfortable & is ready to get in his own bed & so was I.
.........
"K the rude guy from the other day is here looking for you, do you want me to tell him you're busy?" Lei said
"No I'll be right there"
"Okay"
She walked out & I got up from my chair & went to see what Don wanted. I don't know why would he be here if I just braided his hair the other day. Walking in his view I scanned over his appearance & he looked nice. He still had that mean ass mug on his face
"Um hey" I say
He turned around his face soften & he licked his lips & said
"Can I talk to ya fa a minute?"
Agreeing I told Lei if my client gets there before I'm back then just seat them on my chair. Don & I walked to the back in my office I shut the door once we was both inside.
"So what is it that we need to talk about?" I asked
"The shit that went down a couple days ago"
"We both was caught up in the moment it won't happen again" I say
"Nah I knew what I was doing" he say nonchalantly
"Basically you took advantage of the week moment I was having?"
"Yea & no"
"Tf that supposed to mean?"
He grew annoyed because he blew out a breath but I didn't care.
"I like yo stuck up ass man." He say getting loud
"No, we both got what we wanted which was a good fuck that's all Don"
He chuckled bitterly & came gripped me by the neck & whispered in my ear.
"Stop playing me mommas I'm a grown ass man & I know what I want & I want you. I always get what I want believe me"
He kissed my lips, let my neck go, & walked outta my office. Not going to lie that shit just turned me on he's so rude & I like it. I just can't see myself getting to know another guy when I'm still broken from my ex.
That Night....
After taking care of my clients at the shop I went up to the hospital to check on baby. Doctors told me that they wanted him eating & drinking before he get discharged. My auntie got him to eat some soup & drink a little apple juice. I spent a couple hours with him until my auntie basically kicked me out told me to go home & get some rest. I didn't go home tho I went by the store picked up a bottle of wine & drove. I didn't have a set destination I pulled up to the cemetery the one my daddy was buried in. Killing my engine I grabbed my blanket & wine & got out the car. Walking to his head stone I felt my body shiver I placed the blanket down on the ground & sat down folding my legs. I opened my wine bottle & took a sip before talking with my daddy.
"Gosh I miss you so much daddy I wish you were here with me. After you died it seems like everything fell apart & I lost myself. You was the only person who actually loved I ran away & met this guy name Stefan. He physically & mentally abused me I lost two daughters while I was with him. He gave me the greatest thing out of all the abuse my son your grandson Jaxxon Zion Ellis. He beat me for trying to leave him I just wanted to be happy & give my son a better life. Khalil saved me but I feel like I'm a burden on him we gotten into an argument & he said somethings that hurt my feelings. Daddy I'm so broken & damaged I'm so sorry that I let you down. I love you so much" I sniffled
I didn't realize that's I was crying until the tears wet my shirt. Everyday I put on a smile as if I'm okay, but I'm not I'm broken & unhappy. I want to be able to be genuinely happy I want to be able to open up & not get hurt.
4:00am at Karin Condo
The voices in Karin head
"They don't love you nobody loves you you're just alone"
"Shut up don't listen to her you're not alone you have your son he loves & need you"
"Your weak that's why they take advantage of you because you let them. Show them you a tough bitch Karin" the voice says
Picking up the glass I threw it on the floor screaming at the voices.
"Shut up I'm not a weak bitch"
I started to knock everything over that was in sight screaming & crying at the same time.
"Ahhhhh!"
Sliding to the floor I cried even harder in my hands I'm battle with this alone & this shit ain't fair. I don't want to be broken anymore.
