"That feeling when
You don't even
Know what the
Fuck you're feeling"
-Unknown
"Ken don't shut me out baby talk to me tell me what ya feeling?"
I heard him talking, but it was like my words was stuck. I'm feeling so many mixed emotions right now I'm hurt, angry, confused, & devastated. Nobody understand the feelings that I'm feeling right now. I have to bury my mother & stepdad two freaking parents.
"Please Ken"
Parting my lips I began to speak
"I'm angry & hurt he killed my mother & killed himself. That was so cowardly of him why would he do that to her why would he do this to me?" I sobbed
Jeremih pulled me into a hug & let me cry on his shoulder. I'm so hurt I don't know what to do I know my mommy & I had an argument the last time I saw her. I hadn't saw her in two weeks all because of I was upset when she told me about my real daddy. Wish I could have had one more conversation with her, but instead I let my emotions get the best of me.
"I can't answer those questions I don't have the answers to them. Don't beat yourself up over it I'm gonna be here for ya every step of the way I got you"
"Can you come with me today to bury my momma?" I asked him
"Yea babe whatever you need me to do"
Khalil Pov.....
Been drinking non-stop since I found out about my moms getting killed. Hoe ass nigga lucky he took his own life because I was gonna take it. First this nigga attempt to take my pops, but took my unc instead then this nigga take my moms away from me man. Can't show no sign of weakness tho I gotta be strong for both my sista's & both my pops. Wiping my face I walked out the bathroom & sat on the bed. Mo ain't been nothing, but supportive & I love her for that. She literally been a nigga back bone from the time when we was just jits up until now.
"Babe come on you have to eat something" Mo said
"I'm good" I say
She sighed & I grabbed her so she was standing in front of me. Wrapping my arms around her waist I kissed her stomach & laid my head on it.
"I'm good I promise Mo I just need ya to trust me that I'm good."
"I trust you Khalil"
She leaned down & grabbed my face kissing me I kissed back. One thing I'm not gonna show Mo or nobody else is signs of weakness. Hell yeah I'm hurting off this shit, but I gotta keep shit together. I'm Kennedi & Moo big bro I got them & that's what they need to know.
"I love you mo"
"I love you too babe"
Korey Pov....
"Damn it Angie why ya do this to me to our kids I know we had our differences in the past, but ya know I loved you. Told ya I was gonna get out them streets & I did the day ya weak ass lover boy thought he kilt me. I was giving up that street shit so we could be one happy family. When everybody in the hood told me you wasn't no good I ignored them. I just had to have Angie Davis on my arm you was just so beautiful. You was literally my everything back then you gave me three gifts a man could ever ask for. My kids Khalil, Karin, & Kennedi even though you lied to me about K being my son & Ken wasn't my daughta I still loved you. All the bullshit you put a nigga thru I would always put you & mines first. I just can't wrap my head around this shit Ang. You really fucked me up with this one right here I love you Angie always & forever"
Kissing her forehead I went sat in an empty chair ang & I had history. I'm talking back when we was in high school at the tender age of 17. Angie was the only female who had my heart I wasn't checking for no other female. Angie swore that I had bitches when I was in the streets, yeah I did but I wasn't fucking with them. Angie was my main lady man I can't believe she's gone & never coming back man.
