Illicit Affair (A lesbian Nigerian Story)

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I slid down my door, exhausted in every possible way. "Should I listen to what she has to say?" I asked myself as I heard another knock on the door. "Aisha, please just open the door."

"Go away, Chinwe," I said as I picked myself off the floor. My phone beeped, it was a message from her, it said "Please", I sighed.

"You have 5 mins." I moved aside so she could come in "Thank you." We both walked to the living room and sat on the couch, she had not said anything, neither had I but I had my eyes set on the time, "How are you?." She asked, I looked up from my phone and gave her a look I can't quite describe and I think she got the message.

"You're not going to make this easy, are you?." I ignored her question and continued keeping my eyes on the time. She sighed, "I'm sorry, Aisha. I really am. I don't know why I did what I did but I'm sorry for leaving you high and dry. It was never my intention, I was just really really confused" She looked at me for some kind of response but I honestly didn't have anything to say. I was beyond furious but I wasn't going to let her ruin a perfect night. "You have less than 2 mins."

"Wow. You are honestly not giving me a chance here you know?." I scoffed. "What? Common say it." She grabbed my phone from my hands and put it in her purse. "Give me back my phone, Chinwe," I said softly. "Not until you talk to me."

I got off the couch, "Where are you going?." I ignored her as I walked up the stairs heading towards my room. "Hey." She screamed. "Make sure my door is locked when you leave and please leave my phone on the table," I said as I continued walking up the stairs.

"Wait, wait, please." She grabbed my hand and turned me to her. "I know I don't deserve any kind of attention right now but please just listen to what I have to say. Please." I dragged my hand away from hers. "I should listen to what you have to say?!, I called you every day for weeks, texted you countless times begging for at least some kind of explanation, anything just anything but what did you do? You left me hanging for weeks, fucking weeks, not days Chinwe, weeks."

"You can't come here saying please and sorry and expect me to forgive you when the countless please and sorry I sent meant nothing to you. You made me feel like I had coerced you into doing something you didn't want to do, do you have any idea how that fucked with my mind, any idea how many nights I couldn't sleep because... you know what?" I continued walking towards my room, "Just make sure my door is locked when you leave and don't forget to leave my phone on the table." I said as I closed the door to my room.

I sat on my bed, obviously exhausted from this whole thing, how can someone just drain you in every way possible with just their presence. I wasn't being too harsh, was I? I mean she deserved every single part of this she got.

I realised I was still in the clothes I went out in. I stood up, took a shower and changed into my nightwear. I had not heard my door close or maybe she left and I had just not realised it, I didn't want to go back down just in case she was still there. I had not texted Jenny to ask her if she got home safe, "What excuse am I going to give her for this now?" I asked myself, This woman was giving me a headache I didn't ask for.
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I could barely get any sleep, I kept tossing and turning because a certain individual occupied every inch of my mind, I kept feeling guilty for how I reacted but I didn't know how else I could have reacted. She doesn't expect me to welcome her with open arms just because she was apologetic, she hurt me real bad and I don't think she realises how much she did.

I got off my bed, brushed my teeth, took my bath and headed downstairs. I was starved, barely had anything to eat last night. As I headed down the stairs I heard a noise coming from my kitchen, "this woman refused to leave." I thought to myself. I smiled because she was relentless but I wasn't ready to face her just yet so I went back up ignoring the intense hunger I was feeling.

I decided to go back to sleep, seeing as that was the only thing I could do for now and then I heard a knock on my door. I decided to ignore it, I know, I know, I'm stubborn. Then I heard her call for me saying breakfast was by the door. I was starving, I can't lie and I could really use the food. I waited a couple of minutes, just to make sure she had left. As I opened the door I saw her leaning on the stairwell obviously waiting for me to come out of my room.

"Hey." She said. "Hey." I sighed, my heart obviously beating at an abnormal rate. "Thanks for the food," I said as I picked the food off the floor. I earned this food, this was the least she could do for all the trouble she put me through, so don't judge me. "You're welcome." We both stared at each other not saying anything. "Well, I just wanted to make sure you ate the food, I'm going to get out of your hair now." She said as she started walking away.

Don't do it, don't do it, I told myself continuously as I watched her go down the stairs. "Hey!." I called out, "Have you had breakfast?." You did it, I could feel myself facepalm myself. "Err, no. I'll get something to eat when I get home." I looked down at my food, "We could share." I raised the food and she looked surprised. "Nah, it's fine." She said. "Well then, I guess I'm not eating either." I proceeded to put the food right where I met it. "Alright. I'll eat with you." I smiled internally. "Come in." I indicated to her with a slight tilt of my head.

We ate in silence, she barely looked at me, and I felt kind of bad for how I reacted yesterday but I didn't want to apologise, I was done apologising. It just bugs me that it may have hit her a lot harder than I had expected. "I'll take the dishes downstairs." I heard her say, I nodded. After a while, she came back up, "Here." She handed me my phone, "it rang last night but I was a little too scared to bring it to you. Sorry." I collected it from her. "It's fine." I unlocked my phone to see who it was, "I'll be leaving now. I'm sorry for any inconvenience I might have caused." I continued to reply to messages but was fully aware of what she had said and I was a little mad that she was giving up that easily, I worked a lot harder than she did and I didn't even do anything but I still didn't say anything. "Alright. I'll see you around I guess." She said as she headed for the door.

"Why?" She turned around. "Ahn." She said looking puzzled. "Why did you cut me off?." I asked as I continued looking through my phone. "I didn't cut you off, I just needed time to think." I looked up for the first time, "And you couldn't tell me that?. All you needed to do was text me saying that and I would've totally understood." I said feeling myself getting angry again. "I know and I'm sorry." She sat on my bed and took my hand in hers and I took it right back. "I can't touch you?." She asked. "No, you can't."

I heard her sigh, "I wanted you to kiss me. You didn't force me to do anything I didn't already want to do." Can't lie my heart skipped a couple of beats when she said that. "I don't know why I ran off, I can't explain it. For some reason, I got scared and just blacked out." She looked at me for a second and then looked away, "You were already talking to someone else, I didn't want to complicate things just in case what happened was just in the heat of the moment." She paused and looked at me, I was hurt by that but I didn't let it show.

"You're not going to say anything?." I looked up at her. "I honestly do not know what to say?. All I know is you could've easily talked to me about these things. You didn't have to shut me out for that long." She grabbed my hand again and this time I let her.

"I know and I'm really sorry. I know no amount of apology is going to ease the amount of hurt you might have felt, I just hope you forgive me sometime." I looked at our joined hands, I had so many questions but I didn't want to ask them because I was scared the answers might be what I didn't want to hear.

"It's fine. I'll get over it eventually." I looked up at her. "How have you been?" I asked and we talked till it was time for her to leave. I felt there was so much she was holding back but I didn't want to push her, she'd say them when she's ready.
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