Into The Abyss

Our Ending

[A/N: Written on July 1, 2019]

"You're leaving me." he whispered, his eyes shining against the darkness.

Instead of answering, I caressed his cheeks, memorizing every detail of his face. I was never one to prioritize beauty over intellect, never envious of another's beauty.

I admire and appreciate when I see one, but Dmitri's unparalleled face is enough to make me assess my womanly attributes.

He is a man, clearly, but he puts women into shame with his looks.

I remember once he told me that he was often looked down upon because of his femininity.

But instead of complaining, he used his innocent beauty to deceive many.

Coupled with sharp mind, he managed to get what he wants with the mere bat of his eyelash and honeyed words.

A terrifying demon, if you ask me, more ruthless than I am considering that what he targets is not only the physical body but also the mentality of his prey, while I only inflict visible wounds that are equal to the pain I felt.

Dmitri repeated his words. I stared into his eyes and nodded.

"Yes." I answered, my voice breathless as if it took all I have to say it, and it did.

Dmitri sat up and grasped my hands, pulling me towards him. The sandalwood scent that comes from him filled my nose as much as his eyes filled my eyes.

We were too close for comfort, and will be farther once the borders come across us.

"Eris is waiting for me outside. He said he'll accompany till the borders."

Dmitri's brows furrowed. I almost scoffed at his reaction, it seems I managed to outwit him this time.

"That guy always infuriates me even if he's my brother," he muttered, more to himself than to me,

"He harbored affections for you, Katarina. Did you know?"

I shrugged innocently, dodging his inquiry. Eris confessed and made his affection known through his actions and words.

Unlike this guy who only knew how to make implicit promises with underlying meaning that I knew I wouldn't get if my intellect is lower than him, Eris would be more direct.

"Can't I change your mind?"

"I will leave Gilrad, Dmitri," I said in finality.

Yes, I have made up my mind. I will live far from this country, far from the sad memories, 'cause even the happy ones can't make me stay.

I'm tired. I am just too tired. I want to rest.

"Will you come with me?" I asked him, even if I already knew the answer.

Dmitri put his head on the crook on my neck, his breath warm, making me all flustered.

He's hugging me too tightly, as if afraid to let me go, and I let him because this might be the only chance we get to hold each other like this.

His shoulders started to shake, bringing me closer and what distance we have before was all gone, melding us into one.

He did not answer, but his silence was enough for me.

I was a very selfish child before and an even selfish woman now. It has always been my principle to give back what is given to me and take what I thought is rightfully mine, but I guess this principle wont work on him.

Besides I think I wont be able to do it too, he's too valuable and precious to be monopolized by an unkind woman even if behind his pretty innocent face is a cunning man.