My Words Untold

Wishes

Oh what I would have done
To feel goose bumps on my skin
From the gentle touch of your hand
On my body while I cuddled next to you at night

The place of unmentionable love that would flood the butterflies in my stomach because I was yours and you was mine

The unbreakable bond that would have knitted ties of memories in the fresh threads of a hand made quilt stitched of time that paused in moments of eyes locked
While the world faded in the background

An off white dressed drenched in the possibility of forever and ever with a man that could do no wrong anticipation of the creation of stories we would tell to my already born and our soon to come

A love story that defined the basics of love beating
odds of self doubt on both ends

Painting pictures of extravagant locations that we would travel many of days

Having the comfort in knowing that I belonged in my right space that was designed even before I was born

Not having to search or look out into the unknown because I was right were I belonged

What I would have been soo sure that what I felt was replicated from the opposite sex which was you

Reassurance that it would happen no matter what tried to catch us like mice in an unwanted home
That no obstacle could stop the inevitable from happening
Because passion and determination could surpass anything

What would I have done if all of this could have happened
Instead my what if would soon dissolve like a bath bomb dropped in water

Slowly washing away all that I have felt for years with crossed fingers and toes because that's how wishes blossom
To bad wishing wasn't enough to birth beauty in the struggle
The struggle to accept what it looks like now versus
what was on the other side

Blockage of hopeful dreams now turning into nightmares of maybe I was wrong
Because what I would have done is now what can never become