Who to choose {Dylan O'Brien and Thomas Sangster}

Chapter 18-What's happend to Alex?

We sit in the hospital waiting room as the tears stream down my face,
"What actually happened?" I ask Will.
"I don't know," his voice is sharp and plain "I texted him this morning,we were thinking of going bowling. He said yeah and he was on his way but no one came. I called and his phone was off,I Messaged him on Facebook and there was nothing, I called his home but his mum said he had been gone for a while so we panicked and went out looking, but then we received a call from the hospital. They said they'd found him in a subway,covered in blood,unconscious. And he's been like that ever since,"
"What's going to happen to him?" Dylan demands.
"I don't know do I,I'm not a bloody doctor!" Will snaps then sighs "Look. I'm sorry,I just.. Nothing can happen to him,he's one of my best friends,"
"I know." Dylan sighs "When do we think we can see him?"
"Soon I hope," I'm shaking like mad as I squeeze Dylan's hand and Will's hand.
That's when a doctor walks past,examining a clipboard.
"Wait!" Will cries "What happened to him?"
"There isn't much progress yet son," he says "He is very weak,"
"You're not answering my question. What happened?"
"We are sure he has been harmed in some way. But we aren't completely sure but we are pretty sure someone attempted to murder him,"
"But why?" I say "He.. He's never done anything wrong,"
"We understand that but we're still looking into it,"
"Can we see him?"
"Unfortunately not yet,family only,"
"But we're like his family. I'm like his brother! So is Dylan and Emma is like his sister. You don't understand!"
"I'm sorry. It's the rules!"
"Screw the rules!" Will looks like he's about to smash down the building but the doctor just sighs and walks away "What the hell are we supposed to do now?"
"Where is he?" I hear a voice scream. It's Kaya, she dashes through the corridor. I see Chris behind her,they've both been crying. But you can't blame them.
"You can go and see him if you want," Dylan says "It's family only,"
"I can't do it.." Kaya whispers "Chris you go,"
Chris nods and sits her down as he walks away.

Chris returns a little while later.
"What's the news?" Will asks.
"He won't say anything," Chris says. His voice broken and shaky "They don't know wether he'll make it,"
I feel my stomach drop. This isn't real. It can't be. Can it?

I feel my phone shake from my pocket. Once I press it on I see the picture of us. Smiling. Alex is there, and I can't loose him.
He's the closest I have to a brother.
"What do we do if he doesn't make it?" Kaya asks.
"He will," I say.
Will sighs "At the end of the day,the most important thing is that we all have each other. Because we're all in this together,"
"Not if Alex isn't here,"
"He will be soon."

Life seems sometimes like nothing more than a series of losses, from beginning to end. That's the given. How you respond to those losses, what you make of what's left, that's the part you have to make up as you go. Don't cry for the dead,cry for the living,the ones who have to live in this world of suffering.

I feel I can't handle this so I begin to run. Crashing through the doors as the rest of my friends call after but I ignore them. I run outside to the playground which is empty then climb up to the top of the play structure. I curl up,wrapping my arms tightly around myself.
"Emma!" Dylan's voice calls. He sits beside me.
"Heard anymore of Alex?" I ask.
"No.. It's all pretty tense,I don't think we're going to hear anything about this until tomorrow,"
"Well I'm not moving,"
"You don't have to,"
"What happens if he doesn't make it?"
"Some people don't have to stay in your life to keep on existing Emma. They can stay in your heart and that's what will keep him alive,"

His arms wrap around me. Even above the hell and fear of Alex I feel as if with Dylan and all my friends I'm wrapped in a warm blanket full of love. But it's not love without him.
Maybe if I say it's okay then it will be.

"Emma..." I hear Kaya shout "It's Alex. He's awake!"

I throw my entire body off the play structure and sprint back into the hospital. I know where he is now.
Finally I see Alex,wrapped in covers. His face weak and pale his eyes frozen and they look like they won't move.
"Alex..." I say. Standing beside him but he doesn't say anything,just looks into my eyes. "What happened?"
He doesn't respond.
"Alex..."
"He... He..." Alex stutters "He tried. Killing. Me.."
"Who!? Who?"
"That boy... From.. The train.. Josh."