Hey is EJSTAR568 hope you're all staying safe during this crazy time. I know I haven't updated in a while so I put in a lot of effort. Hope you enjoy. Also do you like the picture I did it. Just wondering what you thought.
Michael's POV
There were many guitars. Electric, acoustic, you get the idea. It was a safe place. It gave me a sense of peace, then I saw it, it all came flooding back. A guitar that looked exactly like what Ash used to want. I can still here the words he said. "Mikey, mikey, mikey. When you finish teaching me guitar I'm gonna get my own one so I don't always have to borrow yours." "Yeah, what's it going to look like?" "Um... like yours but uh it's gonna have a big A on it and yeah." I was gonna get it for his birthday. I was gonna have it personalised, made to his exact specifications. I miss him.
I left the shop with that guitar I didn't need another one but what does it matter. Luke and Cal haven't found me they're not stopping me. If I want I could probably walk to the bridge and jump right off it... but what would that show that I lost hope, I mean I had but yeah. Maybe it would say I was a coward or that pressure was to much. I-I don't know but what does it even matter.
I looked up when I felt something drop. It was raining. That being said that meant that the park would be empty so I bought a six pack of Heineken beer and went down to a quiet spot not to far from the bridge. I figured not like anyone would care. I could drink and play all my sorrows away. "Haha that rhymes, drink and play my sorrows away." If I felt like it I could then jump or something. My hearts shattered and torn it's his fault he stole it and ripped it to shreds.
The perfect sky is torn
You're a little late
I'm already torn
There's nothing left, I used to cry
Inspiration has run dry
That's what's going on
Nothing's fine I'm torn
Nothing's fine I'm torn
I'm all out of faith
This is how I feel
I'm cold and I am shamed
Lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed
Into something real
I'm wide awake
And I can see
The perfect sky is torn
You're a little late
I'm already torn
I'm already, I'm already torn
Torn...
"Woo thank you," it came out all slurred together.
"Michael!"
"Who is it, oh it's you. I didn't fucking invite you. Bye."
"Michael what's going on with you?"
"Hmm uh my beloved unofficial boyfriend was dying and now he doesn't fucking remember me Calum found out about my eating disorder, cutting. Calum started cutting. No one except the old ash knew about my meds and medical condition. Uh yeah nothings wrong."
Luke POV
"Wait what?" "What is it breadstick, spit it out." He was drunk and all over the place but his tone was getting colder by the second. Could you repeat the last things cally is cutting and only the old ashy knew about my medication and habits and medical condition." So it's true he's cutting. Shit...I'll talk to him later then.
But I'm curious how much Michael has kept from us. "Mikey?" "What asshole?" I decided to ignore that knowing he wouldn't remember it with the state he's in. "What medical condition?" "Like you fucking care." "I do." "Drinking problem and l...." I couldn't tell what the lat thing he said was. "What was the last one?" "It doesn't matter, just leave me alone." "Not till you tell me what you said and why you're acting like th-" "LEUKAEMIA.. leukaemia ok." He seemed to have sobered up quick. "I was diagnosed with leukaemia last month. You remember when I had to go out a few times in Dallas. Yeah that when I found out. That's when I had the tests. I- can I please just be alone now. I want to be alone. Please." "Fine," I said as left but I heard him say when he thought I was out of earshot...
"Why haven't I thrown myself off this bridge yet." "Wait Michael can you at least come for pizza. It's on me... "Why did you choose pizza Luke you that I can't say no now." Well to be honest that was the point I can't let him throw himself off a bridge... "Anyways how'd you find me." "That's a story for later." "Ok... I'm sorry for calling you an asshole Lukey... but to be fair you kinda were." Way to ruin an apology.
