A cold burst of the wind embraced me as I set my eyes at the night sky. The bright stars that have it's own beautiful stories. Every one of them shines, maybe there are someone wishing to be like them.
Matagal akong nakatitig sa kalawakan and I set my eyes again in front of me. Where I can see the current of waves that slowly approaching me.
The waves of the cold water that sends me chills, from my feet up to the tip of my hair. This is the peace that I always want. The freedom that I scream the most.
Sitting in a soft white sand, I hugged my own knees. Kinukulong ang sarili para makalimutan ang mga sandali. Isang luha ang tumakas sa mga mata ko. Hinayaan kong mahulog iyon. Hindi ko na pipigilan ang sarili ko na ilabas lahat ng mabibigat na matagal ko ng dinala. Gusto kong ibuhos lahat sa tubig para tangayin sa malayo. Yung hindi na ako kayang abutin ulit.
Ilang minuto pa akong nanatili sa ganong posisyon ng may maramdamang may mga matang nakatitig saakin.
Hindi ko inangat ang paningin ko. Naramdaman ko nalang na may tumabi saakin at naupo na rin sa dalampasigan.
"I found you." Mabigat na banggit nito. Hindi ako gumalaw. Nararamdaman ko nalang ang mabibigat nyang hininga na binibitawan.
"Why are you always doing this to me Wynona?"
"Aren't you tired for always making me feel this way?"
This time there's a cracked in his voice. I want to punch myself for being this kind of a person. But this is me, and I can't stand seeing a person hurting because of me.
Sinigurado ko na walang natirang marka sa mga mata ko bago binigay sakanya ang atensyon ko. Nang makita ang itsura nya, mapait akong napangiti.
Ibinaling ko ulit ang paningin sa dagat. Hindi ko kayang makita siya na miserable ng dahil saakin. Hindi ganito ang gusto ko. Gusto ko na maging malaya pero hindi ko ito makukuha kung meron akong hindi binibitawan.
"Akala ko noon masakit na ang maiwan. But I never thought leaving is the most painful way around." Napangiti ako habang naka tingin pa rin sa malayo. Nagsalita akong muli.
"When we met, I already lost myself Zeus."
"I'm just starting to find myself that time. I tried to but everytime I seek for it? I always found myself looking back from what i've been... You've always been there to help me, and I am so grateful for that, then life's go on and a moment came.. I just realize nothing is permanent. This is me, you can blame me for being doubtful, for being a loser, yeah judge me. I already accept that thing. I'm so sorry for being like this." Pinunasan ko ang luha na pumatak, I tried not to broke my voice so I can talk properly. Lumingon siya sakin pero hindi pa rin naaalis ang tingin ko sa malayo.
"I just can't accept the fact that everytime we are together, there's a doubt. I felt scared... That somehow you might disappear. Because all the people I cherished.. you know that they already did."
Doon na tumakas lahat ng luha na kanina ko pa kinikimkim.
"Don't compare me to anyone else, Wynona." His voice suddenly changed. And it's scared me, because I know that tone.
Nilingon ko ito, na sana hindi ko nalang ginawa. The way he look at me. It's always been the same. But at this time, it's dangerous.
"Zeus--"
"Shut up. Your time has stop. This is bullshit. Stop running away,"
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- chavelous
