Love The Way You Lie

5: RECOVERY?

UPDATED JUNE 2, 2020.

Author's Note:

Chapter 4 has been back-edited to edit the word 'boyfriend' with Addison talking about Derek to 'husband'. No, Addison was not having an affair until she had that one with Mark.

About the sex: Addison does enjoy the rough sex with Derek, and she wants it especially after he beats her, because she's been conditioned to take that as a sign that it's over. Derek enjoys the sex with Addison. Sometimes Derek deprives Addison of sex, but he does not force Addison to have sex when she does not want to have it, and Addison does not force Derek to have sex when he does not want to have it.

It's very problematic and an unhealthy dynamic, but I did not want to write about one of them forcing the other to have sex beyond their will, or while one of them is saying no. Addison does want sex with Mark, and Mark does want to have sex with her at the end of the last chapter, though they both know/feel it's wrong because they know they are cheating, they both end up being willing and consensual participants of the affair.

Gaslighting is the term that is used to describe what Derek was doing both to Addison and everyone around her. Derek is telling Addison how she's not to be believed, so she doesn't trust even herself. Derek also tells everyone around her she's a liar and turns them against her, and does this with Mark. This is why Mark does not know what Derek is doing to Addison.

For more info on that, feel free to research gaslighting in abusive relationships.

Hope that helps, I realize I may have to be clearer as an author... Oops, working on it!

This chapter is named after the Eminem album which hosts "Love The Way You Lie," Recovery.

Thanks for all the comments on this, it's very helpful to have reader feedback.

Otherwise, welcome to Chapter 5!

Thanks to those who have left comments so far.

Here's more to this painful story.

Hope to hear your thoughts at the end of it.

bobbiejelly

CHAPTER CONTENT WARNING:

SKIP TO THE TITLE CARD AT YOUR OWN RISK IF YOU DO NOT WANT SPOILERS.

MAJOR SPOILERS AHEAD SO CHOOSE WHAT YOU NEED.

Profound trauma associated with the abusive relationship.

The aftermath of violence.

Abortion.

This fanfiction is pro-choice, and also canon-compliant (mostly?) for that point at least.

Not necessarily a happy ending.

Mentions of suicide as a concept, but not of suicidal thougts, ideations, or of a suicide attempt.

bobbiejelly

Love The Way You Lie

Derek Shepherd, your husband, hits you- but you stayed until you couldn't stand up anymore. Your best friend Mark Sloan helped you leave him and you two had some adulterous sex. When you see Derek again in Seattle with another woman, all you want is to save her from him. You didn't mean to fall in love with her. She wasn't supposed to fall in love with you, either. But you both did, anyway.

-Addison Forbes Montgomery, for Meredith Grey

MerAdd. Meddison. F/F. Meredith Grey/Addison Montgomery. Rated E for Explicit. Grey's Anatomy & Private Practice Crossover.