Love The Way You Lie

8: RELAPSE

Author's Note:

Thanks for the feedback on the last ones!

Glad you liked that Mark stayed Addison's friend. Glad you liked the dream parts at the end :).

Here is a new one, just for you!

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CHAPTER CONTENT WARNING:

SKIP TO THE TITLE CARD AT YOUR OWN RISK IF YOU DO NOT WANT SPOILERS.

MAJOR SPOILERS AHEAD SO CHOOSE WHAT YOU NEED.

It gets worse before it gets better. Not much else to say, here? IDK.

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Love The Way You Lie

Derek Shepherd, your husband, hits you- but you stayed until you couldn't stand up anymore. Your best friend Mark Sloan helped you leave him and you two had some adulterous sex. When you see Derek again in Seattle with another woman, all you want is to save her from him. You didn't mean to fall in love with her. She wasn't supposed to fall in love with you, either. But you both did, anyway.

-Addison Forbes Montgomery, for Meredith Grey

MerAdd. Meddison. F/F. Meredith Grey/Addison Montgomery. Rated E for Explicit. Grey's Anatomy & Private Practice Crossover.

CW: Domestic Violence. Unhealthy Relationships - Physically & Emotionally Abusive Addek & MerDer. Also briefly okay (non-abusive), Maddison & Mark/Derek.

*This story is entirely fictional. Please seek professional help for abusive relationships in yourself and others. Take all abuse seriously.*

Chapter 8: RELAPSE

You realize you shouldn't be able to live without lies.

You realize you shouldn't probably love without Derek Shepherd, your husband, even just in a friendship way, in a platonic way, in a brotherly way of everyone in that delivery room when you got to meet Sam and Naomi's new daughter, Maya Bennett, and they pronounced she is and always will be your godchild.

You realize, years later, that this was the calm before a much, much, much bigger storm...

After the birth of Sam and Naomi's child Maya, all of you stay in the room together for a while, including your brother Archer, as well.

Throughout the entire day, you can feel Archer's eyes on you, as if daring you to 'say something, anything, tell them the truth...'

A part of you wants to.

A part of you wants them to know.

A part of you wants this all to be over, with Derek's antic's exposed, with Mark's heroism exposed, with the bare-bottom truth of your adultery in plain light to see...

There are many complications and confusion(s) surrounding your current situation. On the one hand, you want someday to divorce Derek because even if a broken part of you still loves him, you know that a less broken part of you is healed enough to know, now, that you're much happier not being beaten up all the time.

But there's the part of you that still fears him, that is still owned by Derek, that is still fed by his lies.

You realize that your recovery could hardly be called a 'recovery,' without a relapse.

You realize you sound like an addict and you realize that you are indeed, a junkie, of sorts.

Something's messed up in your head because you crave your husband like a fucking' drug.