Suzzie gone for good.
My dad refused to let anyone visit him .
Mum was now becoming sick.
Worried about my dad's health and still hadn't gotten over Suzzie's death, she was depressed.
She refused to eat for days. She'd stopped crying. She didn't talk to anyone after my sister's burial. I was dying from the inside but I had to stay strong for her.
Deiy and her mum had moved to another country. Her dad needed them them since he was sick.
Loneliness embraced me. Suzzie was no longer there to make fun of me.
I was not able to go to the swimming competition and now had no scholarship too. Going back to school was almost impossible.
With my mum not going to work, there was no way on earth I'd raise my school fees.
I had the option of doing some manual jobs but I couldn't leave the house with my mum in that state.
My dad had everything to get me to school but where was he?
Waking up each day to my mute mother was my new life.
Mum was now going down with fever and refused to see a doctor. I even called Dr. Stanley to check on her but she refused to open the door to her room.
It was clear I was the only person allowed into the room she once shared with my dad.
On that very day I decided to get her medicine with the little savings I had. I promised myself to force the drugs into her mouth if she rebelled. She would definitely rebel but I had to do it.
I left the house hoping that she would do fine in my absence.
Leaving the house I didn't know what was coming my way.
I got the drugs and headed back home.
"Mu....." What was in front of me rendered me speechless.
A knife sticking out on my mum's stomach. Her hand red and her bed soaked in blood.
This is what I was born to experience. PAIN.
I wished to put an end to all the pain.
I hated my mum for doing this to herself.
I despised dad for not being there for us. It was his fault that Suzzie died and what happened to my mother was the award.
I hated life since then.
*NOW*
I suddenly felt someone touch my shoulder. Deiy. Deiy was right beside me. I stood and buried my head into her shoulders. This was relieving.
My mum was dead and nobody was there to comfort me and she came.
She tried to cheer me up and it worked.
For a moment we sat silently watching the water in the pool and it felt great. It was different from the silence I was experiencing the past weeks.
My mother was to be buried the next day.
Deiy and a few of my mum's friends were present to pay their last respect to her.
He didn't attend both his wife's and daughter's burial. Interesting, right?
****
"I'm glad you're holding up well Kelly. I must say you are the strongest person I know."
"Thanks Deiy. With the bitterness that comes with life, we only have the option of staying strong and accepting everything." Tears were now warning but this time I took hold of myself and refused to allow them.
We stared at each other for a while and a stupid temptation just had to creep in right now.
I cupped her cheeks in my hands and got closer and closer to her.
Our noses were barely apart.
"No Kelly" she jumped off the couch and covered her face face with her tiny hands.
I let out a sigh I didn't know I was holding and walked to her.
"Deiy, I'm sorry for rushing things but I just couldn't help it."
"No Kelly don't say anything. I.."
"Don't tell me to stop talking Deiy" I was shouting and hating it but I couldn't help.
"....why don't you get it. I have loved you ever since we were kids running all over the porch. I've been denying myself the chance to tell you this and now I can't do it anymore. I love you Deiy"
She had no response to this. I guess she was shocked as much as I was. I mean I myself didn't trust what I just said but after letting it all out, I felt my heart light.
Without a word she left the house. I didn't follow her and I live to regret that.
It was the last time I saw her.
*THE END
