✧ joshu journals #2 ✧
It was an understatement to say that I'm shocked. I'm more confused and bewildered at the same time. To be honest, I do think Seokmin can be trusted.
Seokmin invited me to go out tomorrow. Of course, we needed to get to know each other better. He said he'd start his "Hanahaki Love Service". I didn't oblige at all, I deeply needed his help. He was the only person who knew about my disease, he's my only hope.
I just wish I don't bump into Jeonghan and Seungcheol tomorrow, it is their one year anniversary as a couple. Jeonghan had always been talking to me about it. He often asks for advice on what to give his significant other.
As his best friend and a stupid person, I helped him. I remember coughing up flower petals till I fainted that day, for I was so tired.
I'm tired. But you don't know that.
Tired is the best word to explain how much I drained myself in order to give you the energy to crack a laugh. But goddamn, if only you knew how hard it was. How tiring it was for me to know that I wasn't always the reason for those either.
I kept trying, even though it ripped every inch and corner of my heart, only to know that you were blind to everything I was doing for you, Yoon Jeonghan.
YOU ARE READING
bloom ✧ jihan
Fanfiction"yoon jeonghan, you bloom flowers in the deepest and saddest corners of my fragile heart!" ♡ [ seventeen japanese fairy tale series #02 ]
