✧ PAGE 02 - KOKUHAKU ✧
こくはく // confession
Joshua wasn't feeling very good today.
He couldn't seem to stop fiddling his fingers while biting them as well. The bell was about to ring, signaling his last day of being a high-school student. It was five minutes away from that when he felt an arm swing around his shoulder.
He swore to himself he won't be a coward anymore. He came to the conclusion that maybe all the coughing would stop if he confessed his love to Jeonghan.
A confession that would take place in a few minutes from now.
"You seemed so restless today! What is up with you?" Soonyoung smiled at the nervous boy. "If I were you I'd be happy, we're going on vacation now!"
"A-ah thanks s-soonyoung, n-now is not t-the time." Joshua stammered, while two other boys approached him.
"I think he needs to go to the bathroom again!" Mingyu laughs as he drags a rather emotionless boy with him. "Do you have medicine for that Wonu?"
The other boy rolled his eyes. "I do, but don't you think Joshua hyung should go see a doctor instead?"
"A-ah n-no, s-something is about t-to go d-down." Joshua muttered which gained laughs from the three boys surrounding him.
"Hey violence is never the answer!" Soonyoung screamed as his arm pulled Joshua near him in a playful manner. "You should go home and rest well!"
Joshua sighed at the thought that none of his friends knew. It was just too embarrassing to tell, and heck no one would believe that a person could actually vomit flowers. He excused himself from his friends to get a peace of mind. The boy automatically found himself in a cubicle, trying to rehearse his lines.
"Jeonghan, I like you."
Ah no, too straightforward.
"Jeonghan, I love you."
That's too much, really.
"Your angel-like eyes do-"
No, too poetic.
"Back in elementary school I-"
No, too nostalgic.
Joshua ruffled his hair out of frustration. He was a nervous wreck and he couldn't seem to find the right words. He loves writing so much, but when it came to actually saying it, he just breaks down. Soon enough, the bell rang and he could hear the screams of teenagers in the hallway. He mustered up the courage to go outside, clenching his fists in the process.
He told Jeonghan to meet him in the rooftop, as cliche as it may sound, it is the only place where no one could witness what he's about to do. Taking a deep breath, he took heavy footsteps towards it.
After what seemed like hours of panicking and walking, he opened the door to the rooftop, just to see Jeonghan already standing there.
W-what? He got here before I did?
"Joshua! Ah its nice to see you." Jeonghan smiled at the boy who looked dumbfounded. "You were here to tell me something?"
Joshua's heart pounded.
It raced faster than it ever did, however he didn't feel any flowery pain in that stomach of his. For a second he thought it would work, he just needed a little push. The boy didn't want to delay the pain any longer. Joshua wanted it to be done rather fast, so that he can be saved from the pain he was feeling in his heart.
"Yoon Jeonghan you bloom flowers in the deepest and saddest corners of my fragile heart!" He screamed. His face flushed with a pinkish hue right after, his gaze averted from Jeonghan.
Jeonghan's eyes widened, the boy was purely dense to know how Joshua feels about him. He was too overwhelmed with his feelings for Seungcheol, that he lost sight of what Joshua felt all throughout the years.
As much as it would hurt, he tried to say it more calmly. "T-thank you, Joshua. But as you know I'm with-"
"I know!!" Joshua screamed even louder which shocked the other. "I just wanted you to know this! I'm very thankful for you! E-even though I-I'm n-not the o-one you love!!"
With that, Joshua ran.
He didn't care who he bumped into, nor where he was. All he wanted was to get far away from Jeonghan as possible. There were visible tears in his eyes, he then clutched his stomach as he felt the flowery feelings blossoming there once again.
I-It didn't w-work? But I confe-
Before he could even continue his thoughts, he bumped into a taller figure. He found himself on the ground due to the impact, and so did the other. Joshua looked straight at him, waterfalls flowing down his eyes, as he saw at a rather good looking guy with hazel brown hair and a pointed nose.
"Ah so this was the one hanahaki sent me to help, yikes you look awful!" The guy exclaimed as he looked at Joshua from head to toe. "You should go to the bathroom now, those things inside you will come out in about, hmm, a minute."
Joshua's eyebrows furrowed. "W-who are you? A-and how did y-you know?"
"I'm Seokmin, your helper kitsune!" The bright boy exclaimed. "Now let's get rid of your hanahaki disease shall we?"
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bloom ✧ jihan
Fanfiction"yoon jeonghan, you bloom flowers in the deepest and saddest corners of my fragile heart!" ♡ [ seventeen japanese fairy tale series #02 ]