The Guitar Pick//Malum//AU

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Coming home to find your long term boyfriend dead isn't how anyone wants to end their day. Sadly for Ashton Irwin that's exactly how his was spent.

It was a easy day at work for Ashton. Ashton was a logger along side his best friend Michael Clifford. Logging was a very dangerous and stressful profession. Ashton liked the thrill of seeing a tree fall down. He never knew way but it always made him smile, it's kinda twisted actually. Seeing something that keeps you alive die.

Ashton will probably never smile when seeing a tree fall down again though, because the only thing that keeps him alive and has fallen and died. Luke Hemmings was Ashton's long term boyfriend they were high school sweet hearts and only had a few major fall outs. Ashton knew Luke was depressed but, he thought it got better he went to therapy and took his meds always. Or that's what Ashton thought that night getting a call from Luke's therapist asking here he has been the last three sessions and seeing a full medication bottle was just the icing on the cake.

Seeing Luke hanging there lifeless like that, hanging by a belt. It physically broke Ashton, so you couldn't even imagine how he felt mentally. He couldn't move and he defiantly couldn't look away. Is it bad that Ashton still thought Luke was beautiful? His pale skin even paler, dark circles darker and Ashton thought he was just as beautiful as ever. How fucking twisted is that? 

The paramedics said there was nothing Ashton could do. And that doesn't help because, his boyfriend just fucking killed himself not leaving a note or any type or goodbye, he left nothing. He couldn't do anything to help him. He could have been a good boyfriend more loving and caring. Maybe if he payed attention to Luke he would have noticed he could have noticed the signs. The signs his depression was worsening.

One of the first things Ashton did after saw Luke was pull up his sleeves. The sight he saw that was written, craved into this poor boy arms spoke volumes about how he really felt. 'Ashton' was craved into the boys arm. Why? Ashton has no fucking idea he thought that everything was going great but, he was oh so oblivious.

Ashton lays in his bed thinking over that days events. Everything was going perfectly. And then Ashton realizes things weren't always as perfect as he thought. And at that moment was the first time he cried since Luke's death.

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I KNOW IT'S MALUM JUST BE PATIENT WITH ME THE FIRST FEW CHAPTERS WILL BE ABOUT ASHTON

poor ash :( I cried while writing this oppps

-Lilly:)