The Guitar Pick//Malum//AU

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Ever since that first tear Ashton can't seem to contain himself. He has been crying almost all night. He can't contain his emotions anymore. He lost it, Nigeria falls are coming out of his eyes now but it's hot angry tears. Ashton's angry at Luke because, he left, he fucking left Ashton all alone. He fucking killed himself in their house a place Ashton has to live in. Ashton has to live in a house that is boyfriend killed himself in he has to walk past the room where he hanging every fucking day. He's mad mostly at himself, because his boyfriend, his Luke probably felt alone this whole time. He's mad because, he didn't help Luke. He didn't give Luke the attention he deserved. It was always a kiss on the cheek before work and a kiss on the cheek after.

Ashton was never good at handling or controlling his emotions, anger especially. So that explains how he is at 3 o'clock in the morning trashing his and Luke's room, well just his now. He pushes everything off the table in full rage, tears coming out fast and hot each hotter then the last. He screams, so loud everything he is feeling is in that scream. He grabs Luke's favorite guitar without even thinking and smashes it. He fucking smashed Luke's favorite guitar. 

Ashton coming off his rage high realizes what he has done. He broke one of the most important things in his boyfriends life. He's on his knees now holding the broken pieces crying into them. He wants to wake up so badly with Luke right next to him it's all a dream. It's not though it's Ashton shitty reality and with that thought Ashton falls asleep in the remains of Luke's favorite guitar.

Ashton wakes up at about ten, which is really late or Ashton to sleep in for. He is a morning person waking up at six o'clock every morning to watch the sun rise. Luke loved the sun rise. It all hits Ashton now Luke is dead, he broke the guitar, Luke is dead, he broke the guitar, Luke is fucking dead, he broke the fucking guitar. He doesn't cry though he ran out of tears from last nights events.

He takes a minute to look at his surroundings. His room his trashed, his desk knocked down, and everything is on the floor. He then looks down at the guitar, but something catches his eye it's a guitar pick. He picks it up inspecting it. It's a wooden guitar pick, with the number 3 on it. Ashton has never seen it before which is strange considering he brought all Luke's guitar picks. Ashton is fascinated with it for some reason. Not being able to look away from it even though it's plain, dull, and boring.

Ashton walks into the kitchen looking in the fridge still holding the pick. "Ugh I really want to some pizza." Ashton groans. He has really bad night and wants to eat the saucy heaven. Right on cue Ashton doorbell rings. Ashton wasn't expecting anyone but it's probably someone to check up on him.

He answers it to me met with a pizza delivery man. "You Ashton Irwin?" The man asks.

"Uh yes" Ashton says confused he didn't order pizza.

"This is yours on the house." The pizza man winks handing Ashton a pizza. Ashton doesn't question it, it seems legit plus he's hungry and grieving he needs this. He sits down and opens the box seeing it was had pineapple on it. He hates pineapple on his pizza, but that was Luke's favorite.

He goes to get a cup filling it with water. Then sitting at the counter, he notices the pick has a number two on it where the three was.

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-Lilly:)