Scattered Puzzle

《Parte Tres》

Dear You,

I need to get a life but people aren't my thing so I guess I'll stick to being the quiet weird kid.

I saw you with your friend so I know you have them but I could never be how you are with him, that's a lot of work.

I'm not sure what to write, I really do want to just talk about how delectable you are, even your voice could make me faint.

I'd never do that in front of you though, that'd be too weird, you know?

Like honestly, who'd do that in front of someone they like, I'd hate myself- well more than I already do.

Placing my pen down for a moment I lean back in my chair, rubbing my temples.

Leaning forward once again grabbing my pen as I furrow my eyebrows in concentration.

God, why am I obsessing over a guy?

I've never done this before and that scares me.

Here I am, in my small apartment writing to some guy for nothing, nada.

But I don't want to stop, sometimes I do but it's the only slightly positive thing going for me, I don't think drugs are a positive.

To me it's not but some idiots out there do.

That is, until they realize the reality of what comes with doing such a job.

I didn't figure out that way but my only friend did, he killed himself to get away.

Oh my god, if I ever even get close enough to you to give you these you'll hate me.

But you're accepting right?

Maybe, you might not be, I don't know you but I'd be happy if you were, not that you'd care anyways.

Reaching my hand over, I grasp my phone to check the time as it read 2 a.m.

Well, I'm going to finish this letter up or journal entry, who knows what this has become.

Bye?

Till next time?

Whatever it'll work.

From,
Unknown

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Alright I did it. I actually wrote this all the way through in about half an hour. I feel like I accomplished something for once. Sorry for any mistakes, I am human, not a computer, forgive me or hate me. ;o

~R {December 22nd, 2014}