mythical to be 💌💦

plans 👏

hello hello, a very non-planned plan came in to my life 🤓

it's a really important announcement btw so if you started to enjoy this journal please read~

as you all know (if you red my journal) i've been obsessed over pick a card videos, and i'm not going to bring you another life crisis, i'm just saying, i have re thinked the idea of being a neko

and honestly i'm so hyped for it, i totally want it, i'm so determined 🤩

but

my mind is sabotaging my shifting, i can't even m-shift, my mind is sabotaging me

for a few reasons

1 - self doubt

2 - blocking myself

and probably more, and your going to say "i also have this and it works stop being dramatic" well honestly your not wrong 😔

life has a plan for me, when time of being a neko will come it will

right now, i need to learn who the hell i am

how to love myself

know myself

and have CONFIDENCE in myself

when all of this will be achieved, life will let me become the final state of me

all i'm saying is, life has a road for you, you may not know the end, the road, it might be bumpy or smooth, you don't know. All you have to do is follow it, and at some time what you want will come around

i'm not abandoning, i'll wait for the good time, i need to know me before i take big chances in life like this

i know it will happen, i believe in it, but just not right now, i will continue my life, i'll listen to subliminals from time to time, but no more spells, only meditation and m-shift 

if you enjoy this journal just know, that my adventure isn't done, i'm not abandoning, i'll update

don't remove the book from your library if you think i have stopped trying after a few days

for the time being, i might not update but please understand me, all this self doubt is blocking my wishes 

i'll create another book called "who am i"

if you want to know more about me, what is happening in my life, meditation well you'll find it there

good night/good day~