Another Choice

15

(Noah) - now

Fuck! That was intense! Seeing and feeling everything they felt. She gave him everything... Her first kiss, her first time. He's his first everything and surely the last. Goddess, I'm so stupid! All my life I hated the fact that fate was already decided for me! I hated people telling me that I should not care about my other mate that I will break her heart because Selina is my true soulmate. That my destiny was to become King one day and nothing else matters. I hated the fact I don't have any choice and I felt so stuck. Stuck in the situation I don't want. And more people told me that the more I hate that, the more I hate Selina. The more I wanted to punish her for that. I have ever thought about the fact she was in the same situation? That she has nothing to do with that? Never! I dreamt so often about my other mate because she was representing freedom for me that I never thought about the price of this freedom. If it's freedom... I need a drink.

"Do you think a drink is a solution? You do know as a werewolf you can't drink to oblivion?" Dad asks.

I'm in his office. I can here because it was close and I knew nobody will dare come here, well except my father.

I shrug.

"How do you know where I'm hiding my alcohol?" He asks again.

"This word map is not correct so why keep it if it was for something else." I say.

"What are you drinking?" He asks before serving himself.

"Whiskey, it's the only alcohol she's drinking." I reply.

"You went to spy on her head?"

"On both of their head, actually."

"What did you see?"

"How much they love each other." I sigh and finish my glass.

He nods and drinks his glass before serving us again.

"I'm so stupid! Five minutes in her head and I'm already falling for her. Hard. Too bad, I'm too late. She already chose him!"

"How can you be so sure? She is in danger and she doesn't have a lot of friends now. You develop stronger feelings in these circumstances. Maybe it will fade."

I close my eyes: "I felt what they feel for each other. It's so deep. Moreover, they look so happy together, I can't be the asshole who break their happiness."

"It's your life-" He starts but I cut him.

"And I need to live with my choice. It's what I'm trying to do now. After what I did to her, I deserve that. It was my choice to ignore her, even if I didn't expect someone else to seduce her, I was not here to stop him either. I'm the one who pushed her away."

"Don't you think you are too hard with yourself. She's your true soulmate, you should fight for her."

"And destroy Tom's happiness. How that's fair for him? After what happened with his mate."

"You're my son, it might be unfair but your happiness passes before his."

"What do you know about the plot against her?" I ask, wanting to change the subject.

"Since your reject-, I mean her 18 birthday (He corrects himself when he sees me scroll), she is partying a lot, she even appears aggressive with important persons creating problems, big problems. I have to say the last time I met her, she was really mean and disrespectful with everyone. A few call her the black widow, as she likes to seduce men. A few of them even die trying to mark her like Oleg. Anna-Lynn succeeded to fix all the diplomatic incidents but I don't think she will able this time. Oleg's death is more an act of war than a diplomatic incident. More and more voices are rising, they don't think she should become our Queen. And maybe they are right. Anna-Lynn thinks she is under influence. She is the first the Lycan ever rejected by her true soulmate, we don't know the impact it has on her."