SUN ( Jaehyun/ Taeyong)

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"Don't be nervous. Don't be nervous. Don't be nervous. Don't be nervous." Jaehyun whispered. Jeno and Sicheng were sitting on their friend' s bed smiling fondly at the boy. "Do I look nervous?"

"No, not at all..." Jeno joked. Sicheng just nodded, smiling at his best friend. "Jaehyun hyung, you need to calm yourself for a second. Do you want to scare him away or something?"

Jaehyun just sat on the floor, covering his face with this hands and fake crying. "Do you understand that I actually like Lee Taeyong? I romantically like a superstar ?"

He looked over at his friends who were still sitting on his bed. He did not know what to do. He was going out with Lee Taeyong. He was going out with him. And the thing is: he no longer thought of Taeyong has his crush. As someone who messed with his head. He liked him. He liked Lee Taeyong. "I know it's a lot of pressure but the thing is: Taeyong actually likes you back. He likes you so why would you be nervous?"

"That's my point," Jaehyun hugged his knees, looking down. He didn't know what to do. "He likes me."

"That's good," Jeno commented. "Listen, Taeyong likes you already so you don't need to worry."

"I'm afraid," Jaehyun looked over at the window. It was a sunny day, one of those you would like to go out for a walk. It was such a bright and sunny day, yet Jaehyun felt a storm inside him. Why did he let himself fall for Taeyong? He could never offer Taeyong a "normal" life. Why did he let himself fall for someone he can't keep up with? " Everything would be easier if I were a girl..."

Sicheng laughed at how silly Jaehyun was. "It wouldn't matter. He likes boys. Taeyong likes you. And he is ready to risk everything for you. He'll do everything for you so please stop thinking too much about it."

That was what scared him the most: Taeyong would do everything he could to protect Jaehyun. To let him know he is not alone. He makes him feel so valid and he lets him be himself. Taeyong was so charming, how could Jaehyun be like that. How could he keep up with Taeyong? He couldn't and he didn't know how to feel about that. " I should have never let him get his hopes high....I can't do this."

"Do you like him or not?" Sicheng asked. 

Jaehyun just simply nodded. " Then stop being a coward. Where are all these insecurities coming from? You like him. He likes you. Forget he's a superstar. Forget the hate you're going to get if you ever get into a public relationship. Forget everything. You like him. He likes you. That's what matters. You have the right to fall in love with someone. And you're not in love with Taeyong the superstar. You're falling in love with Taeyong, the person. You'd fall for him no matter his job. That's what matters here. You like each other. Nothing else should matter."

But it was so hard to think like that.... 

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"Alright, call me if you need me to pick you up, okay?" Johnny opened the door for Taeyong, hugging him right after. " Remember: this is just a date. Don't go too further."

Taeyong pinched Johnny' s nipple and rolles his eyes. "Shut up, giant."

"Go get him tiger." the tall boy winked at his best friend, going back to the car and leaving the place. Taeyong was all alone again. 

He didn't spot Jaehyun right away so he figured the younger boy would be a little late. He took a look at himself: he didn't know if Jaehyun thought about it as a date as well so he just wore some comfortable clothes. He also bought a present for him. It wasn't that much, but he knew Jaehyun liked that kind of jacket so he would probably like the present. 

Taeyong was also very insecure about his feelings for Jaehyun. He liked him, very very much, but he did not know if they were playing a dangerous game or not. He did not give a fuck about anything in the world but he didn't know if Jaehyun didn't care as much as he did.