SUN ( Jaehyun/ Taeyong)

103

Funny how this is the chapter number 103, however  this was the first one I wrote and the reason I started to write this story.
I hope you're all safe!! ☀️☀️

tytyty
Hey Jaehyunie

Jaeofficial
Hey my love

tytyty
I'm sorry about being a little off yesterday and today

Jaeofficial
I've spoken to Johnny and he told me you'd be fine

tytyty
Oh

tytyty
Yes

tytyty
I'm really sorry about not telling you I'd take a break for a couple of "hours"

Jaeofficial
Don't apologize. I understand.

Jaeofficial
Do you want to talk about it?

Jaeofficial
I'm here for you ☀️

tytyty
Thank you 🌙

tytyty
But it's nothing much. I just sometimes think about my anonymous life before being a singer and I feel way too overwhelmed by everything that happened to me, you know?

Jaeofficial
Yes, I understand you

tytyty
My life was just constant anxiety while being a trainee bc everyone expected a lot of me and now I am kinda known and I have to cope with their expectations and it stresses tf out of me

tytyty
I usually take breaks from people bc I need time to breathe, time to feel alive all by myself

tytyty
I know I have an overthinking problem but I can't help it

tytyty
I haven't done that for a long while now sooo I did that yesterday bc I needed to think about why I suddenly feel so happy and the only possible answer is you.

Jaeofficial
Oh...it's fine. You're okay and I'm here listening to you

Jaeofficial
Kinda glad I'm your answer tho 😉

tytyty
You're not getting it Jaehyun... 😂

tytyty
When I became a celebrity and moved to Seoul... That was the worst for me.

tytyty
I used to live in constant anxiety; I was too overwhelmed all the time, but when I found myself all alone, living on my own, my anxiety went away. Instead of anxiety, I had the silence. I lived in silence and that scared me. The silence scared me.

tytyty
The noise, the annoying people and that anxious feeling were the only thing I knew of. The only life I knew of. When I found myself all alone I got anxious again... this time about the unknown. The only thing I had was the silence and that was something that scared me. Why.... you may ask... because I lost control and I couldn't say if I was alive or not.

Jaeofficial
......

Jaeofficial
Do you feel alive now? Are you okay?

tytyty
I do feel alive. All thanks to you, tho.

Jaeofficial
Oh, really?

tytyty
Yes...

Jaeofficial
Why me!?

tytyty
Because after years I heard my heart beat again. I go back home and I love the silence. I don't know if I can still call it silence because now I hear my heart beating and I just know that I am alive... tat I haven't lost myself just yet.

tytyty
Just texting you, thinking about you, calling you makes everything so much better. You and the idea of you when you're not around brought a lot of peace to my life and I won't ever be able to thank you enough for that so thank you.

Jaeofficial
I think that that process of self descovery and getting over your insecurities and fears and finding out you're alive it's all on you. You've conquered all those battles alone so it's all on you and I'm so fucking proud of you for sharing this with me and for fighting so hard for years.

Jaeofficial
Also, I'm really glad I was a big part on why you feel better. It means I'm doing my job as your friend and boyfriend, but

Jaeofficial
I'm mostly proud of you, Lee Taeyong

tytyty
I fucking need to hug you.

tytyty
Where are you?

Jaeofficial
I was going to the gym but apparently I'm going to your place now 😂

Jaeofficial
See you in 10?

tytyty
Thank you Jung Jaehyun ☀️🌙