Origins

Maddie-- part 3

When I wake up, it's to the feel of my spine being bent and changed. It's agony. I scream and scream and yell and try to break free from this pain. The rope holding me to the bed is strong. I feel little tingles like needles poking through my skin and I start to feel angry. Pissed off. I want to hurt someone.

My fingernails grow and sharpen.

My bones shift and break into smaller pieces. I feel like some are just being welded together. My screams start to burn my throat, but it is nothing compared to this searing torment.

I can't get myself to faint either and let this pass through my unconscious body.

I can't move but I see Jayden come into the room. He looks full of grief. My face changes and my cries of pain become howls and growling.

Jayden comes and sits by my wolf form.

"I'm really sorry, but if it helps, you're a beautiful wolf." This doesn't help. I don't feel emotionally normal. I've never been this full of rage.

"You're very black, like myself, and your pretty green eyes have only gotten brighter. You can make it through this."

I try to take his words as comforting, but they only feed the fire of anger.

I howl until he suddenly puts a leather strap around my muzzle to silence me. I try to bite him without thinking but he succeds in muting me. I can only whimper now.

"I'm so sorry, but you were going to get me arrested if you didn't shut up. The normal screams would have ben worse but the pillows kind of muffled them."

Yeah, female screams of pain and terror would have drawn some unwanted attention.

After a few hours of laying in agony, Jayden comes and gets on all fours.

He changes into a wolf and jumps on the bed. I feel so much calmer and comforted with him now. It's odd, I would normally be unsettled but as a wolf, it's much better.

He nuzzles his snout into my neck and lays next to me. The pain of the change has mostly subsided.

I relax and wish that he would take off my bindings, but I know that would be a bad idea.

I take some deep breaths and try to accept that I'm a monster, an animal now, but then try to focus on Jayden beside me. He's doing his best to help me.

He has much more control than me. I have no idea how he does it.

After a while, Jayden moves off of the bed and I see daylight come through the window. He changes into his human form and takes off the leather strap around my muzzle.

"OK, you have to focus on being a human. Focus on making your fur return to inside of you, making your spine straighten, your bones reshape. You can do this."

I try and focus all my energy. I can do it. I can do it. I can do this.

Suddenly, I feel my spine change and it's much less painful this time. After a couple minutes of struggling, I turn back into my normal self.

Jayden comes and unties me. "You did so well."

Once my hands and feet are free, I rub my wrists. He still has to undo the one on my waist. After he takes it off, he wraps his arms around me and pulls me into his chest.

"Why was that so painful?"

"Because it was your first change and your body had never done anything like it before. I'm sorry again, about having to tie you up. I couldn't risk you escaping and killing anyone."