Days pass by and I still don't grasp the algorithms of the world. It's bewildering me to a point where I'm enraged. How does one survive without any guidelines or hints? But perhaps it's just a few people from my world. The aspects I don't understand but still end up clinging on to. I revolve around these aspects even if I can break this magnetic field and pivot my way out of there.
But the way, the path is what doesn't allure me. I want to change but, my brain doesn't seize the basic differences between what I want and what I need. My wants are foolish, I couldn't expect the same efforts one must give in a relationship, not just love but a sheer bond of kindness and love of a friend. How could one possibly say "make new friends" when I'm standing right there to make the same relationship one doesn't want to put efforts into growing. These wants are the most destructive, they put me in dilemma everyday. I act like I need them, like they're fuel to a car. I need the wants and that's stupid.
I need to change. I need to condemn these wants because I am in no circumstances letting myself revolve around these thoughts anytime.
I'm growing but so are the difficulties around me. It's eating me up. Can I escape?
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Nescient Brain
DiversosThis was how I felt not long ago. Perhaps, just a few months back. I reflect on what I've written and felt and try to evolve as a person. I solely want to say that accepting the way you feel is always alright but ignoring it isn't. So, I've decided...
