I thought you were my forever

Chapter 4 ( Hurting)

Moran's pov

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I wake up with an empty bed side. I sigh, get up and try my best to be positive, but then I feel the feeling taking over me. I look down at my ring, I then place it in my drawer with our pictures of our dates and our wedding pictures. I then collapse onto my bed hugging the pillow close to me. I had fallen so deeply in love with him. My heart breaks thinking of our good times and when he called me later today to see how I am doing, I tried to hold up a smile and I felt a little releaved when he was laughing. But it's bitter-sweet because I'm happy that he's happier, but then again I'm hurting because I wished that we could've worked things out, but what's done is done. I cannot change the past nor his heart. Maybe one day we'll come together again. But then again, I can't hope for that because once your out of love with someone, how are you going to fall in love with them again? Ugh, why didn't I just pass when I almost did? Why did he play me for a fool? Why is it always ME that has to get my heart broken? Why can't I ever find my happy ending? Why can't someone want me as bad as I want them? Why is this life that I live is so unfair? I don't think  I can do this anymore. I go to the bathroom, I look into the mirror. I start to have an emotional breakdown, I go to the kitchen, I found a knife, I out it up to my wrist, but then stopped myself because I can't end it. I love him to mush to completely be gone and put him through this horrible pain that I am going through. I put the knife back, I hover over the sink as I cry my tears. "Why me? Why us? Why now?" Is all I think to myself.