Sangini: Teri wajah se

Lose You...To love Me.

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I Ragini Gadodia , 22 years old is in now in immense pain because the person whom I consider my everything just ghost me even without telling me the reason. I don't know why laksh did this. But I don't know now what to do every memories are now haunting me. And I can't even share my pain with my family. Its just a story between me and my pillow which is still wet with my continue crying.

Ragini Prov:-
Now I'm feeling
As if I'm drowning..
Under the waves of words,
Which I never said.
Though even at this moment there are thoughts I want to share with you,
But now I don't know why
I don't feel the urge to share.
Though our souls are still connected at some points,
But now I feel detached.
Not because you can't guess the sadness in my voice or pain that is clearly visible in my eyes,
But because I guess I trust your promises which were just your another lie.
I don't want to say anything
I don't want to share anything with you.
Neither the things which are going well,
Nor the things which are choking my breath.
I don't know why its feeling like hell,
As it's a curse to feel the emotions very well.
Though still now I don't know what's bothering me,
Your absence
Or my over thinking.
But now I just want to detach myself,
Detach from your presence,
As well as the fact that every second the time take me back to your memories.
To your thoughts,
Which always well up my eyes.
Not because I'm thinking of you,
But because the reality strike me hard,
That you are not even bothered to think of me just once.
It hurts when your efforts are not responded with the equal intensity.
And now it's making me miserable.
Thinking that my own decision is ruining my life.
Now it's paining even more.
Carrying the things that are not even going to serve me ahead in my own journey.
I don't want to burden myself down with the baggage of someone else's liabilities.
Though I know I'm not always correct,
But I expect the others who always claims to be my own,
To at least once they try to show me of my mistakes,
So that at least I can try to mend the things,
Or at least I can apologize for my deeds.
I might have hurt you I know,
Because I'm quite short temper
And
Sometimes I'm way too irrational,
But ghosting me in the world all alone was not the one and only solution.
Though I still respect you,
But now I can't take it anymore,
The pain is becoming unbearable,
Now I just want to respect myself,
I don't want to surrender,
I don't want to lose the battle,
I want to fight my own demons,
So that in future I don't lose respect for my own self,
Because right now is the moment calling my inner soul to take a stand for myself.
Don't think I'm talking cold,
And cutting you off my space,
Though it might be the ultimate result,
But now I need to lose you,
To love me again....