"Being a fan of someone who you hardly know could seem quite unnatural. but I think it's the purest type of love."
"I don't want you to be my fan, I want you to be mine."
JinyoungxJaehyun
(my two peachy boys)
She needs him- and not just in her dreams. Being with Jinyoung was the kind of life she wants to live in.
Keep on thinking about how great it would be, and how she might finally breathe easy knowing for once that there's someone in the corner- someone that would take on the world with her, cry with her and sometimes, hurt with her. She thought, about how it's going to kill her if he decided to leave.
Thinking about leaving makes her weak, feel vulnerable. Will he stay, as the special person?
Hope you'll be there, Hope you'll stay, Hoping that he's going to stay- her special person. Because she needs him to need her, because she needs him.
"Jinyoung."
Jinyoung froze, nothing less out from his mouth.
"You want us to date?"
None of his expressions seem explainable.
Oops! This image does not follow our content guidelines. To continue publishing, please remove it or upload a different image.
"Aena."
,holding her hands that quite cold, because of jitters and butterflies affection.
"Yes-"
"There are a lot of great things about dating you."
Jinyoung then back to froze, slowly brushing the back of her hands, trying to find something to continue his conversation.
"You walk into my life as someone that I adore since day one. But I wasn't looking out for love."
Thats how Jinyoung's work. He said no in such a polite way, like a sweet character in all books he read.
The first tears might fall out- she hold it.
It's always good being rejected. What a wonderful feeling come. Now you could understand this world working in much better way.
She'd be disappointed, very disappointed. Not on Jinyoung but on herself. Disappointed about the fantasies that she create aren't going to come true anymore.
She was denial, heart broken and could not comprehend even in the slightest why her favourite person doesn't like her back.
"Ah,"
Jinyoung pull her into his arms, sipping the tears that flowing through her pinky cheeks.
"I am sorry.." "I am so sorry.."
The hug feel more tight, with Jinyoung slowly running his hands on her back. She couldn't cry out loud in front him. She couldn't do that.
"I want to go home."
The hug break, wasn't harsh. Just a sign for him to let her go.
"I'm not feeling well, let's go to the park again soon."
She might stumble in the dark,
The road suddenly seems narrow and the sun feel too hot. The air around her feel rush and blood thirst.
She fasten the step, leaving Jinyoung behind who barely call out her name. She want to be home fast, to cry all her heart.
