Thoughtful Things and Things I Thought

Where I See Myself (not based on real events)

Drunk dancing to a pop song with a sad undertone, that's where I see myself.
Cup of flavored rum coupled with bad dancing and fun friends in a living room.
Hair down and spirits up, masking the subtle sadness sitting in a corner of my heart.
Surrounding myself by distractions, sleeping with whomever I please at whatever party.
Forgetting the murky swamp of sadness I'm twirling in as another song plays, smoke in the air from something that somebody is smoking.
Crashing on the couch with someone's sweaty head in my lap, running my fingers through their hair and panting because we're too out of shape to dance like that.
Smiling and laughing as the lights change colors and we swap our liquor for water.
Passing a pipe, getting just high enough to make the laughs just a little more uncontrollable.