Ethereal

Part 6

It was a forever thing.
You said it was.
We were supposed to last forever .
We promised it would.
But it didn't
And I'm here still confused,
Where did we go wrong?
Where did I make a mistake?

Remember 4th of August?
We went for a hike and sat under a tree.
You had a pocket knife and craved our initials on the tree.
You said, "It will last forever, because trees live for a very very long time."
How could we forget that sooner or later trees are chopped and burnt for fire.
Like us.
Broken and burnt forever.

I still read our old chat conversations.
Sometimes smiling and sometimes with tears in my eyes.
Whenever I think about you and the memories we made,
I keep asking myself, "We were supposed to last forever. Why didn't we?"

I had friends before you and I made many friends after you,
However no one like you.
We blocked each other and I also deleted your number.
However I couldn't delete our pictures.
I look at them at least once a day and reminisce about us.
We were the best of friends.
More like soulmates.
You were made for me and I was made for you.

Remember how I held your head up when you puked your guts out because you drank alot.
And what about the time a car nearly hit me because I didn't move away from the road.
I wanted it to hit me.
But then you came and saved me.
Slapped me back to my senses.
Then cried in my arms and said, "I cannot live without you. Don't be stupid."
See how the times change. You are living your life just fine without me in it.

I could live without you.
I still can.
However I don't want to.
But I have to.

I miss you everyday.
I think about you everyday.
Do you too?
I hope you do.

Dedicated to my best friend whom I deny to call an ex-best friend.