Spoken thoughts

OMEGLE IS GOOD?

OMEGLE.

The site where you can talk to strangers, where you thought that you could find the Jonaxx guys, where you think that you can start to meet decent guys and marry them at the end. But that thoughts are just a mere imagination. And I for one has witnessed how omegle world truly is. I had a lot of encounters on the site because (1) quarantine made me do it (2) and I was eager to talk to strangers and also maybe find some pogi na foreigners.

But it is all a messed up app where a bunch of horny dogs are out there but don't get me wrong you can still talk to some decent guys. IF YOU ARE LUCKY. There was an article that I read from Philstar indicating that 'Omegle' is the most searched word in 2019 here in the Philippines. And i'd like to give you some tea about what happened in my omegle journey.

I met a guy from Germany and it was quite a unique encounter I had with him. He was drunk when he came to Omegle and I was just sober and wanted to chill from the horror movie that I watched before I headed to sleep. We had a great chat though, well most of the time he was telling me a bunch of funny stories about his life and I can honestly say that he has a sense of humor without even trying that much. We exchanged snapchat names and decided to talk there. He made me laugh all the time whenever he had the chance. And I'm grateful that I met him during quarantine to lessen the boredom.

2 weeks has passed and we had already played games such as T or D, Pick a number and even Rock-Paper-Scissors on chat. I could tell that he was really a good guy and from his background of relationship. He only had 1 girlfriend for 6 years. SIX YEARS BES. And I thought "Grabe naman yun, Yung pinaka longest relationship I had was almost a year na on and off ghosting pa sa crush ko" so i was thinking that he wouldn't be like other guys who is into 'GHOSTING', who would respect you and not force things na hindi mo naman gusto, who can make you laugh and etc. I witnessed how gentleman he truly is and how he would compliment me a lot basta he is a good guy ganon.

But days passed by and I noticed that he was not that invested to the texts like how he was before. I understand the time difference that we had and I know that he is working because that's what he said. He'd keep on telling me that he would call soon and that I don't have to worry. After that, boom. Ayon nawala siya for days. Ginhost niya ako. Sabi nga nila, "Expect the Unexpected" pero it was way sooner than this. Syempre I kind of just shrugged it off kasi naman bago pa lang naman kami as a friends and that I shouldn't be demanding too much of his time kasi baka nga busy siya and all. But to be honest, for the past few days that he didn't bother to read my dm's, I started questioning myself again.

The typical woman who would thing na:

"I am not good enough"

"Baka may nahanap na iba na yon"

"Maybe he got bored texting me along the way"

"Iniignore ka niya, kasi di ka maganda"

and so on..

I was sad along those days kasi naman di mo rin maeexpect na ganon siya just like other guys. So i started doing stuffs just to not think about it kasi mahirap magoverthink tas masasaktan ka lang dahil rin sa pag ooverthink. So I started building my confidence again and encourage myself na di pa end of the world, na di ko kailangan ng guy to make me happy or laugh.