Then, Now, Always

Break-ups an Make-ups

No. Did he really just ask that. He couldn't have. But it does make sense.

"I love you Tyler!" His eyes widen in delight, but Im quite sure he wont be so delighted after this.. "I love you as my best friend and nothing more. So no!" He glares at me then 1 second later is gone

"No wait!" I was beyond crying. Again. "I'm sorry. I'm a mean and bad friend! Forgive me! You are the only person I have... If you really loved me..." I didn't complete that sentence. He had far past shut the door and left. Funny thing though, I didn't bring my house key. I actually didn't bring anything.

  About 30 minutes later I was still unfortunately sitting on my porch steps, sobbing off and on.

'Maybe if I moved things would come together nicely. Meet new people. Have a chance to start over. With these people I don't. A sudden noise startled me as my gaze was quickly on Tylers house. Apparently it wasn't the door slamming. My eyes widend and any possibilities. The banging was for sure coming from inside his house.

I ran to the door step then rang the doorbelle twice. Oops I always do that. Its how he knows its me. I then started randomly banging on the door. My fists started aching. No one would answer. I knew he was in there! "Tyler!" I whimpered. "Tyler please answer the door!" Maybe the only way was this, and even if it wasn't... Too late "Tyler I re picked and yes! My answer is yes!" There was bitter silence. My stomache turned. I had to smile. Frowning just wasn't an option. My smile defeated me. Surprising much? I think so! The door slowly opened. "Can I come in?" He nodded boldly. We ran up to his room. He closed the door and locked it behind him.

"You were saying?"

"I re thought it for the relentless half an hour of thinking and my answer is yes. And one more thing, what was all that banging?"

"Oh. You heard that." I nodded "I was just frustrated."

"Is it because I said no?"

"No!"

"Oh umm okay?"

"So youre really saying yes? But what about all you said back there."

"I wasn't thinking straight I guess." I shrugged my shoulders. I was giving him a try. Seeing how things go. And a bonus for me is that Audrey will be super jealous. I smiled at the thought

"Oh then I think I except."

"Great! But Ive gotta go now so catch you later?" He nodded unsurely "Bye!" I was far to perky to be me. Brightest Ive been since I had friends. I officially have no friends. I laughed at myself while going through my now opened garage door. Mom and dad are home. Its funny how my life works. My mom and dad had me by mistake. They still call me a mistake. Plus I have to buy my own food and well everything. Sometimes I steal there money other times I do work for people around the block. And sometimes I invite myself over to Tylers. They are more like parents to me then my real parents.

   Im in my room closing my eyes and scetching what I see. Its a heart almost ripped in half with cracks all over it. But then out of know where a band aid is on it. It looks fantastic in my mind. I open my eyes to see a messed heart with scribbles all over it and then the band aid on the other side of the page. I smile as I crumple up the paper an through it, where ever it landed. Then try with my eyes open. The cracks looked absolutely hideous and unreal until I shaded the whole thing. It looked beautiful except this time it wasn't broken. Neither did it have a band aid. I really didn't think I did a hakf bad job. I rumaged through everything I owned until finally I found a navy blue tack to hang in on my wall with. It completed it. The turquoise paint with all my "friends" handprints in silver over top. A cloud white circular bed with black circular pillows. Of course there was the old brown dresser and scratched paint off my white desk but to me my full length black framed mirror completed my room. It still had lipstick kiss marks from me and Sammi when we were in grade 6. She was my best friend only for about a year. It was summer after grade 6. Her and her family were driving only a couple hours away to Lethbridge to visit family. Only approximately an hour away from there final destination, a train hit there vehicle. Sam was killed almost instantly. I still remember not having anyone tell me until I had to hear from all the gossip girls.