Chapter 5- No Feelings Aloud

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Alex's p.o.v.

I wake up the next morning, well rested, I swing my legs over the bed and get up to walk to the bathroom. I get out and I realize I have a pain on my butt from all the slapping and fucking but of course the hickeys won't go away, well at least not yet.

I grabbed one of the t-shirts on the floor and it goes all the way to my knees, how is this even a shirt? Then again, Daniel was the same, maybe I should work out to get muscles hopefully.

I go downstairs and smell something amazing, I walk around until I find the kitchen and see him sitting down. He just had on sweatpants that ran a little too low on his hips. I really need to work out, I think I would be more attractive if I had a six-pack.

I think he heard me even though I said that really quietly, how? He gave me a hug. It feels good being in his arms, it makes me feel safe.

"Alex you don't have to change anything about yourself, I like you the way you are". Why? You could have any other guy more fit so, why do you want someone who is fat like me? My past is too fucked up and I have a business to keep me busy, you can leave if you want to, I looked down.

"Why do you talk so much crap about yourself, you are perfect for me, do you understand? I guess, "what was that?" I said yes, I understand. I'm hungry, what's for breakfast? That changed the mood and we forgot about my little put down.

I have to go get dressed, oh you can't leave, I like seeing you in my shirt, especially with nothing under it.

I sprint up to the room and see my clothes nicely placed on the dresser, I still take the shirt with me and wash it. I did get syrup on it and I feel bad.

I grabbed the rest of my things and he sent an Uber for me. He insisted that he can drive me, but I don't want him to see my house. There is nothing wrong with it, it's just that I don't want to have to mention my daughter, not yet. I think he will leave once he finds out and we have a good thing going on right now. I'm not having feelings for him so it's all good.

I get into my house and it is early enough, I can make a quick breakfast and let her eat it before she will be dropped off at her aunt's house. When I'm finished I go up to the room and see she is still asleep.

I look down at her for a little while, she looks like him when she is sleeping. He had that same twitch she has and she snores like he does. Which annoyed me at first but he was my first love, nothing could come close to him. I wish he was alive even if it was a short while so I can apologize to him.

I soon wake her up and she isn't fully awake yet so I pick her up to do her business in the bathroom and then I think that wakes her up enough so she can walk down the stairs by herself.

I give her her food and she looks at me weirdly, what's wrong? "Nothing I don't kn... I saw you leaving out with a guy". Oh okay so she does know, "who was he?"

Ummm Elle I will tell you when the time is right, "when is that going to happen?" Ummm not now sweetheart, is that okay? "Yeah, daddy are you okay?" Yeah I'm fine, why would you ask that? "Because you have a bruise on your neck", oh shit good thing it is a cool season I can blame it on me being cold if I wear a turtleneck. Oh yeah it was a little mishap, it's okay though.

After you get dressed I'm going to drop you off at Auntie Sam. "Okay Daddy, David and Melinda are going to be there and they are fun to play with".

I'm glad everything is good over there. Chop chop meet me down here dressed and ready to go in 10 minutes. She does rush out of there getting ready for the day. I get dressed at the same time as her but I grab my uniform to change into.

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