Alex's p.o.v.
Damn, this has been a rough couple of days. I was only gone for the night leading up to the morning. He is acting like I was gone for a month or more. I don't really hear what he says to me.
Daniel is sadly right, I'm not in love with him, yet and that's a hard pill to swallow. I can't get back with him and I won't.
I'm moving on, I'm not going to prove him right even though it hurts to know he has been alive all these years and I was mourning a person I knew since the beginning, but then again he hid his life from me.
I don't know what I would have done then but I know I can't be with him now. I don't want our daughter to grow up in that dangerous world he has been born into.
I love him regardless and that scares the hell out of me. My heart wants me to ignore his lifestyle and be with him, but my brain is screaming NO! NO! NO!
I'm not going to deal with this, I will just have to take the easy, and safe way with my boyfriend Adrien. Daniel will have to just deal with it, I sent him away, I won't see him ever again.
I realize I’m still in the bedroom, but he isn’t in here with me. Adrien, where are you?
I hear talking in the kitchen, I back up against a wall so I can peek and see, “Luca, he isn't better at all, I had an entire conversation with him and he wasn't even listening.”
“He got his daughter back, then he was taken by his ex-husband, how the hell are you supposed to be okay with that?”
“I don't know Luca, when do you think he is going to talk with me again? He hasn't seen his daughter yet. I don't know what to do should we c….” Hey, Adrien, who is on the phone? I walk out of the shadows. “Hey he draws out slowly, how are you feeling?” I'm fine, I swear. I want to know how you found his house.
“You have been there before”, well yeah we were married, “you didn't try to call”, how could I? I was locked in his freaking room. “How are you feeling about him being alive? Did he tell you why?”
I'm glad he's alive, for Brielle she can finally know her father, but because of his family he had to leave us. “What do you mean?” His father said he would send someone to kill Brielle and I.
“Why?” Because of his family business and it was overseas, “he is a grown man couldn't he have come back.” He thought we were dead, I frowned. “Why would his father do that? take you away from his family and blatantly lie to his own son, that's harsh.”
“He didn't hurt you or anything? Did you do anything?” No I didn't do anything to him, he was the one to drop everything, enter himself in me… well my life I mean. He sucked all the air out of my lungs, I was tired by the end.
I just told them what happened, keeping a few things out, technically all of it is true, he did enter himself in me and ate me out, and he did take the air out of my lungs.
I can't believe it happened, I cheated on him. I can't lie to myself, I did take part in it. I hate myself for loving him, will he contact me or will I have to contact him? He somehow slipped a phone in my pocket when we kissed for the last time.
It is the last time and he needs to understand that. I'm going to move in with Adrien to prove I do want to move forward with them.
Hey Adrien, I think I want to move in with you, “really? Honey that's awesome you are amazing” He pulled me into a hug and I missed this. I know it wasn’t too long but still.
My daughter came with me, “I got it. I love your daughter, and I would love for her to move in with us.”
Great, I need to talk to her first, “of course”. Where is she? “She is at your sisters' house, Savannah.” Okay let's go, “Honey it's 9pm”, WHAT?!?!?! I thought it was dark because it was early in the morning. I started hyperventilating, I mean I was gone for only a day now I'm making it 2 days. I'm such a horrible Dad, she probably thinks so too.
Adrien picks me up and sets me down on the kitchen island table, he cups my face, don't you dare say that. You are an amazing Dad and to raise her all by yourself that's pretty admirable.
Adrien says, “I know you, I love you and I know you wouldn't ever hurt your daughter or me.” Can we move in tomorrow? I don't want to wait forever to actually do it.
“Okay honey, can we watch a movie and then go to bed?” okay and of course I yawn showing I'm definitely not going to be seeing that movie. I will fall asleep once I get into his arms.
I'm sitting on Adrien's lap leaning my head on his right shoulder. “Do you want to watch this movie?” Yeah sure I reply. “It's supposed to be a good one”, he said.
It's all about a big catastrophe and the people that survived get killed soon after, it’s called Final destination. I lay back on his shoulder closing my eyes and not even two minutes later I hear the tv being turned off.
“He looks adorable when he sleeps, I know I can't say that, because if he somehow hears me, he will be pissed. He isn't a puppy so he's not adorable, he's cute.”
I'm undressed and put into boxers, I curl up when he puts me on the chilly sheets. I hate when he sleeps naked he is very distracting, and he knows that and he just does it to annoy me.
I love you Alex and I want to say I love you Adrien but I’m supposed to be asleep. I hear his slight snore, there is no way I'm breaking his heart. Daniel is going to have to find somebody else.
