Star Wars One Shots

I'll Never Love Again - Ahsoka and Rex

Authors Note: I recommend listening to the song while you're reading

Nausea. 

That was all Ahsoka was currently feeling since she had received the comm from her Master, she had foolishly been on another mission which she insisted on going instead of being with her battalion. An overwhelming sense of guilt flooded through her body, rocking the force to the core. She was feeling so deeply she wondered if the other Jedi could feel her pain. She certainly knew that Master Yoda would, he seems to feel everything. 

Ahsoka was currently stationed in her quarters on the ship, not sure how she was sitting at peace when all she was worried about was him. She had yet again taken a leaf out of her Master's book and found herself falling in love with her most trusted advisor, one of the small amount of people that held her complete and utter trust. They had managed to keep their relationship secret for the most part, unsurprisingly most of the Clones in the 501st seemed to figure out, she had always had a sneaky suspicion they may have a slight mind link, not strong enough to read each other's thoughts but enough that they could sense feelings and changes in their brothers. Fives had been the first to found out, he had been the most excited at the thought of finally having Ahsoka a legal sister, her ribs had managed to hurt for hours after the bear hug he had given her along with Echo, Appo and Coric. 

The only ones that seemed to have an issue at first was Dogma, Kix and Cody, they didn't want anything happening to either of them, and wanted to ensure that the mission always came first. That was their job at the end of the day. But not even they could deny the happiness felt in the room that seemed to be emitting from the two people in question.

Ahsoka smiled sadly at the memories, her eyes welling with tears as she tried to reign in her resolve, she couldn't break. Not now. Not yet. She didn't even know what was happening or if he was dead, all she knew was that he gotten badly injured and not even Kix knew if he was going to make it or not. She closed her eyes as she felt the tightness in her chest returning, this must be what Anakin feels when he knows Padme is in danger, although her Master didn't know that she knew about his secret marriage, she was happy that he had found someone to love and care for. Even though it was against Jedi code, Ahsoka had always felt that love should be allowed and everyone should be loved in returned. Apart from the Sith and the Separatists of course, those clankers were a pain. 

Ahsoka had never felt pain like this, as the feeling of fear and sadness grew in her, she rose from her bed and began pacing the room, the panic growing more in her every passing second. She couldn't breathe, no matter how hard she tried it seemed the air wouldn't move to her lungs. Her eyes widened as she tried her best to calm down, but she couldn't. She fell to her knees and begun to sob, it had been a while since she had cried but it had never been like this. The pain felt like it was never going to stop. Ahsoka wrapped her arms around herself to try reign it in, but it was no good. 

As Ahsoka was panicking in her room, Fives had just happened to be passing, he was aware of the situation and where they were now going. Not even he could stop the sadness showing from his face, as he passed by the Commander's quarters he paused as he heard a soft thump following by a muffled, strange sound coming from inside. His eyebrows furrowed as he glanced at the door, he wasn't sure if he would be crossing the line, but knowing of the situation at he hand, he thought it would be best. Fives checked up and down the hall way before knocking gently on the door. 

"Commander?"

There was no reply, Fives frowned, that wasn't like the Commander. He pressed the button to the left hand side of the door which made the doors open automatically, his eyes adjusted to the darkness of the room momentarily before they drifted to the ground where he found his usually strong and tough Commander, sitting on the floor in tears. Fives stood awkwardly at the door for a moment, not entirely sure on how to handle this, he had never seen someone cry before. He had heard about it, but never witnessed it for himself. And since they were never taught about anything like this during the training he was quite unequipped to do anything. Right now, he wished General Skywalker were here, but he would have to do.