Spin The Bottle | CHANGLIX

part 35

@feelixlee

I walked solemnly to my house. This day couldn't have been any worse. I can't believe i let this happen. I should've kept the beanie, I should've just forgot about everything, i should've- i should've-

The words rang in my head over and over. Everything i could've—no, should've— done differently. How could i even go to school tomorrow after what happened?

I thought about Chan. He didn't even hesitate to fight for me. I hope he doesn't get into too much trouble. I felt guilty knowing it'd be my fault.

As i started up my driveway, i could see Jac in the kitchen having a conversation as she mixed something in a bowl. Who was she talking to? There was no cars in the driveway but maybe she had a friend over.

I sighed, after the day ive had i did not feel like engaging in small talk. Maybe i can sneak past but knowing Jaq, she'll probably stop me.

I opened the front door, praying Jac doesn't say a word, and began to shuffle past the kitchen.

"Hi, Felix." She calls. I sighed and looked up. I guess i couldn't avoid her after all.

"oh, hey Ja-" I froze.

Why the hell was Changbin sitting on my kitchen stool?

The dark haired boy gave me a small smile and i couldn't help but scoff.

"Changbin was hanging around the neighborhood so i invited him in." She grinned,  avoiding my eyes. "I hope you don't mind."

I turned back to Changbin. He looked out of place, wearing all black inside my bright and homey kitchen. "Why are you here?"

Jaq took this as her cue to leave as she set her bowl down and disappeared out the back door.

Changbin stood up and met my eyes, "I just wanted to say that i'm sorry."

I softened for a second before realizing he probably doesn't mean it.

"Seriously, for everything." he added, quietly.

"Liar." I mumbled. "Get out of my house. Why did you even come here."

He moved slightly toward the front door. He seemed unsure of what to say or how to handle the conversation.

"Were you expecting me to just accept your apology? We both know you're doing this just to save your own ego. Since clearly you care more about that than your actual friends."

Changbin looked visibly hurt by my words but it was true. It was satisfying to hurt him after he'd put me through so much these last few weeks.

"Felix, seriously, listen to me. I'm really sorry. Honestly."

I stood, unmoved by his words. The boy seemed to take my silence as his cue to continue.

"I don't even fucking like Hyunjin. And i know what i said was wrong and i'm sorry i hurt you in front of everyone. I felt like i had no choice, i didn't know what to do." He paused for a second. "I'm just stupid, fucking stupid, felix. I didn't mean for this to actually happen."

"If you didn't mean to do this than why did you? We were friends. And then all of the sudden you drop me? And then, you cause a fucking scene in the hallway when i was just trying to give you your shit back. I was convinced that maybe you had changed. I thought that we were more-," I stopped myself. "I knew about you, changbin, and i still gave you a chance..." I trailed off. My eyes began to water but i wiped the tears away. He won't see me cry.

"I know, I'm sorry. But i did change, Felix. I changed because of you. You taught me things about myself that i never realized before. Everyone at that school is wrong about you, especially Hyunjin. There's nothing wrong with you. You're hilarious, and smart and witty... I'm sorry i ruined everything."

My heart tore into shreds. Is he really being honest?

"Just stop, stop." I said.

We stayed silent for a minute before i started to laugh a little. Whether i was trying to hide my tears or not I couldn't control myself as i began laughing.

"Are you.. laughing at me?" changbin asked, unsure.

This caused me to laugh even more as i double over and fell to the floor. Hearing this seemingly cold-hearted boy try to come up with sweet words about me was kind of funny in an ironic way.

Suddenly, i felt a hand on my back and i looked up. Changbin had come over to me.

He lifted my chin up and i hoped that my red face from laughing hid the blush that rose to my cheek. "Youre laughing." he stated. "I couldn't tell if you were crying or not."

My laughing subsided and changbin dropped his hand. Nevertheless, he stayed by my side on the ground. I was instantly aware of how close we were. I could feel his eyes on me and i turned to face him.

"I'm sorry, Felix."  he said again, setting a hand on my knee. I couldn't bring myself to brush it off. As upset as i was, i couldn't deny the fact that i still liked this stupid boy.

I looked away again. My mouth went dry. I had too much to say.

Why did he let Chan just beat him up without fighting back. Why would he come all the way over here just to apologize?

He is truly sorry, i thought.

"The truth is, felix..."

I felt my heart catch in my throat. This isn't happening. My eyes widened. This can't be real.

"I like you."

I finally looked at him in his dark brown eyes. I laughed. A genuine laugh escaped my lips and i couldn't help but smile at the boy.

But he smiled back, a little uneasy at first but then he laughed too.

"Felix, i've liked you since we played spin the bottle that night."

"We'll you're in luck because i think i like you too." I say, unable to avoid my sarcastic quips even in this moment.

Suddenly, the older boy hugged me. I was shocked for a second but i relaxed into him. His body was warm and comforting.

Was this it? Did I, Felix Lee, manage to melt Changbins seemingly frozen heart?

A wave of relief washed over me. The weight that had been on my shoulder the last few weeks had finally lifted and i felt... happy.

"Finally." He sighed with a smile, pulling away from me. "I was convinced you'd never, ever, talk to me again."

I turned my head slyly, "i was considering it."

"But certainly you've changed your mind."

I laughed and looked back at him, "What do you think?"

Changbin nudged me playfully, clearly exhausted from going back and forth.

"I like this," he said, taking my hand in his and laying his head on my shoulder.

My heart raced. This isn't a joke anymore, this is real. I snaked my other arm around him and snatched his beanie off his head.

"Isn't this mine now." I said, dangling it in front of Changbin. I expected a reaction, but Changbin simply smiled and inched closer to me.

"It was always yours, Felix."

A/N
There is another chapter after, don't worry :)