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4. Past

Lizzy

Hi again!
Our class had a field trip today. We went to a Hospital Garden. We learned so many things about plants and the history of medicine. Although some of the boys from my class kept joking and said that it was boring, I think it was pretty fun! I especially remember the look on Brad's face. He looked really excited. And I was excited for him too :)

It was raining heavily last night. So the garden was slippery. I don't know if it was a coincidence or not (I swear I didn't do it on purpose), but I slipped and he was there to hold my hand. And that's when I felt the butterfly in my stomach.

I mean, we spent so much time together now. We sat together at the bus. Sometimes we talked, sometimes we just listened to music together. We even sat together at lunch, with Lynn Lily and some of his friends. They would joke about how Brad and I looked like a couple.

Well honestly, I've liked him for a while. Like, as a friend. He was always there for me. It was so easy and comfortable with him. But right after he held my hand at the garden, it felt different... I mean, we used to hold each other's hand when we were younger. It was nothing. And now as we grow up.. I guess that nothing has turned into something :/

Actually, I envy Lily and Lynn. They have their own boyfriend. Lily is dating someone from our neighborhood and Lynn is dating a senior. I really want to have one, but I couldn't think of anyone else..

What should I do about it? I'm pretty sure he only think of me as a friend. He's so friendly with everyone, even with other girls.

I guess I have to keep it to myself...