A trip to Bessekai

VI

I was walking to the room where I would rest just like Lune told me, the food we had was no different from my world. It was the first ever thing I saw here that wasn't far different than the things I've known back at Japan. But once again, it all felt familiar. And taste familiar.

The food gave me a hundred percent satisfaction. I could feel my stomach bloated because I was so full. Tsuki and Lune was with me and they explained a lot of things to me.

They said I came here when I was 18 and had the same reaction right now, but Haru found me first back then.

'We didn't know how you ended up here the first time but you surely had the same reaction just like now but slowly you got to adopt here and we got to learn where you came from'

I asked who Haru was but they said that it's for me to find out soon when he gets back.

So I asked where he was but they both said they didn't know.

'Ever since the war ended and you two left, The prince has been wandering off. They say he's been going to his secret place to rest and spend time alone. He really misses you a lot, Risse"

I was still confused so I asked them about the war. I remebered when back then when I was having flashes of memories that there were loud noises like screaming of men and women around. There was the music of people's vain by that time where I was begging that Haru.

They said that a war had been proclaimed by the people of Hono, the warrior of flames, they believed that I did not belong here, as a legend showed that one man is going to come to cristallisse from another world to meet the ends of this world's existence, they treated it as a threat. And when I came here years ago, the prince hid my identity but the Hono found out sooner than we expected. They gave me a chance as soon as they saw that I was a woman, the prince begged for them to consider me, they said I spent 450 days here exactly 15 days on earth but then the Hono had enough as they were unsure of me. They did not want such person like me to be here in the world they were living in. So they claimed a war against the kingdom and planned to murder me. They were eager to kill me and anyone who stands for me.

Tsuki said that I was lucky they recieved the message and warning sooner for me to escape. But the people were murdered with no mercy. They have been dragged with the war and many died.

It was so tragic that I couldn't believe that happened. I was guilty as they told me every detail of the war.

I feel like it was my fault.

I had knowledge of some things now, but I still need to remember it myself.

'Is it really worth remembering if my memories would come back?' I thought to myself as I walked through the hallways. I sighed many times and just wished I could remember.

Tsuki told me Haru didn't know we were back, so both Lune and me had to surprise him.

I just nodded at Tsuki but I wasn't so sure if I wanted to. He seemed like someone I passionately love but I don't remember him right now. I was worried we might feel awkward and I'd say things to him that would be offensive. I never knew how to love when I was so lost back at my world. I didn't know how to love someone back there so how should I love someone I forgot.

"You promised me" the memory of it flashed again to my mind. The headache was there once again and I shriek in pain. I found myself back again to that room earlier and I laid down to rest.

It bothers me so much that I kept remembring the pain as that memory of him letting me go.

I was thingking deeply with my thoughts and my eyes were getting heavier. I was falling asleep before I knew it.