A trip to Bessekai

XII

I just sat over the corner of the deck, by the bars, the whole freezing ice snowy night.
Just sitting and thingking blankly, realizing what I have recklessly, stupidly, mindlessly done to myself.

AHH WHY DIDN'T I THOUGHT ABOUT THIS FIRST BEFORE ENTERING THIS SHIP.

I wanted to scream, go wildy insane, scare people with my high pitched shrieks.

But here I am, in a very mentally, obviously scarred state and lowest point of my life, sitting and hiding myself from my stupidity.

It hurts when you have a brain, yet it's not working.

I get lost just by roaming around the palace, how can I even survive outside the kingdom...

And to another city...

With no one...

When I don't know where to go...

What to do...

I started kicking the air out of fustration, and suddenly remember what Kon responsed earlier that made my current state of mind worse than it is.

'T-t-this- we're headed to Forroh- stop shaking me!'

'WHERE. IS. THAT." I was shaking him abruptly in between my words.

"Ou-outs-outside the Murasakino kingdom! To another land-- STOP SHAKING---"

"WHAT!?" I yelled at him causing him to close his eyes and blink countless times.

"Your saliva is all over me" he complained as he tried to wipe his face off.

"KON WHY ARE WE GOING AWAY FROM THE KINGDOM!? turn around! Let me go back! This is a mistake!" I desperately begged.

"YOU LITERALLY JUST WENT IN THE SHIP" he scolded. My ears were teary and he felt guilty scolding me for a moment. He then felt pity as he tried to say something to me while I wail.

"W-we can't go back that instant" I then looked at him instantly. Speed. Faster than flash.

"Why?" My voice was full of suspense and threats. If I hear another depressing thing that's going to happen to me, I swear I'll snap the hell---

"The ship won't travel again for a month back to the kingdom"

With that depressing conversation Kon and I had, I did snap. Now, here I am, freezing, dehydrated, hungry, wounded piece of sh...shi... shinigami.

People in the ship were avoiding my direction and Kon was no where to be seen after the scene. I was left alone to suffer.

Well to think about it, it's just like how people treat me on Earth. Guess I'll live the same here.

I wonder how Tsuki and Lune are doing, I hope they weren't hurt.

I closed my eyes and slowly falling to depths of my slumber.

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🐈LUNE ROSFFIR'S POINT OF VIEW🐺

"Something's bothering her" Risse stated.

I've noticed it too, she is acting the same yet different since we got back. I know that girl's hiding something.

"Yeah. Let's go" I replied and walked faster following Tsuki to the shop.
Before walking in, I noticed that she was talking to the kingdom's sourceress, Sukie, acting furiously based on her expressions.