Emerald ~book 2~

Chapter 5

~Saint POV~
This is all my fault! Saint was pacing back and forth in the lodge. Tears streaming down his cheeks. I did this to him. He walked over to a wall and punched it. Letting all his frustration out, Saint bit his lip and looked down. I did this.....

Mew and Gulf were looking at him with concern, with the state I'm in.

"I love you, I love you, I love you...." Saint whispered to himself. The pain in his chest was unbearable. He hated being controlled like that, he hates being the reason Zee's hurt. He isn't even thinking about the fact that Zee's a werewolf right now. All he cares about is Zee being ok.

"Hey Saint it's o-" Gulf tried to comfort Saint but Saint cut him off.

"DON'T YOU DARE SAY ITS OK WHEN ITS OBVIOUSLY NOT GULF PLEASE." He shouted at Gulf. Gulf looked at him with hurt in his eyes. Saint took a couple deep breaths trying to calm himself down.

"I.... I'm sorry I just- I'm sorry." Saint said almost in a whisper and sunk to the ground. He let his head fall back on the wood wall.

"Saint we know, but everything will b-" Mew started gently.

"Please just please don't say everything will be ok. Please Mew we all know it won't be. You don't get it I'm the reason Zee's in that room laying in a bed severely injured. I'm the reason this all happened." Saint's voice cracked at that last part.

"I don't want or need comfort right now. No one should comfort me I deserve all this. Zee doesn't deserve to go through this. If I could make it me in that room right now I'd do it without any second thoughts." Saint said in a gentle, hurt tone.

"But Saint then Zee would suffer the same pain your going through." Gulf said lightly.

"Listen Saint my brother, I've never seen him look at anyone the way he looks at you. He's in there fighting for his life for you. I don't know how you did it back in school but you broke the barrier he'd built around himself to pieces. For once since he was 4 he had a genuine smile on his face he wasn't sad or angry, he was happy. Genuinely happy you brightened up his day just by him seeing you in the halls. And you've been there, you've seen Zee at his best and worst moments. But you were always there to comfort him, always listened to him when he needed someone to talk to. Always had a shoulder for him to lean on when he was feeling like he couldn't go on. You've seen Zee at his Strongest and weakest moments, you've been there for all of it. He loves you more than he cares about his own physical state. Heck! When he woke up after he fell of the cliff he jumped up and immediately tried to get up to find you. And he would of done just that if it wasn't for us who begged him to rest so he won't reopen any wounds. And last of all he had the chance to break the spell that made you hate him but he said no. He chose your happiness over his, his exact words were. "As long as Saint can love whoever he wants and be happy with them. He can hate me all he wants." He loves you so much Saint, he can't live without you." At the end of Mew's speech Saint was in tears sobbing. I don't deserve his love, not after what I did.

        "Saint Mew speaks the truth." Saint was startled by Zee's dad coming out of the room.

         "Dad? What are you doing?" Mew asked a little nervous.

        "I'm talking to my future son in law of course." Zee's dad retorted looking at Mew.

       "S-Son in law? B-But Sir I thought you were against our relationship." Saint said shocked by the sudden naming of son in law.

      "Listen Saint I knew Zee was going to love you with or without my consent. So I'm just accepting it the way it is." Zee's dad spoke the words softly. This made Saint cry even more to know that finally Zee's dad has accepted their relationship.

        "How is he?" Saint asked quietly looking at Zee's dad.

        "I'll tell you this, he's not dying any time soon. He is still passed out but we're pretty sure he can still hear everything that's going on." Zee's dad explained calmly. Saint let out a breath he's been holding for the past couple minutes. He's not going to die.

       "Can I see him?" Saint asked hesitantly. Zee's dad looks at him with hesitance.

       "Give me one moment." He says before disappearing back into the room. A couple minutes later he comes back out and nods his head. "But only 5 minutes."

       Saint got up slowly and entered the room Zee was in. It hurt so much to see Zee there on thee bed eyes closed. He sat down in the chair next to Zee and laid his head on Zee's chest.

      "I'm sorry..." Saint croaks shutting his eyes tight. "I'm sorry for everything I've done."

       Saint could feel the steady rise and fall of Zee's chest. He listened to Zee's gentle, steady breaths. They calmed him a bit and made him relax. Saint so wished that he could see Zee awake right now and he could apologize for everything he's done.

       After the 5 minutes were up Saint pressed a gentle kiss on Zee's forehead. Looking at his lovers calm face before leaving the room.

       "When will I get to see him again?" Saint asked lightly.

       "I'm afraid it will be 1 year before you can see Zee again we have to take him to our safe house too many people here have seen him" Zee's dad says sadly.

         1 year?! Well this is going to be one long year. But Saint was willing to wait, for Zee...