Breaking My Silence

Pretty Porcelain Doll

In the beginning, I thought our time

Together was a neverending dream.

From the moment we met, my heart was yours.

But now, as I gaze into the mirror

I can truly see the hellish nightmare

You decided to bestow upon me.

I cut off anyone and everyone

At your request. At first, I tried to fight

Against it. In the end you always won.

There was a time that I used to wonder

If you loved me as much as I loved you.

Now I know; you didn't. You loved someone else.

And as I look into my reflection

I come to a painful realization;

I was all yours, but you were never mine.

So many heart-wrenching years I wasted,

Feeling desperate and hopeless as I tried

To become the person you wished I was.

If I called you out, you called me crazy.

Eventually, I fully believed you.

Your false lies became my unyielding truths.

Sadly, it kinda makes sense. In your eyes

I wasn't a human; just a pretty

Porcelain doll to be possessed, posed, and viewed.

For too long I allowed you use and

Abuse me in an unending cycle

Of betrayal. You broke me with a smile.

But, I guess, in the end the jokes on you.

You said it was over your dead body

That I could leave. So, I killed you, then left.